This day was supposed to be a happy day. I mean, it's been a happy day but because of my stupidity, our stupidity, I don't know anymore. 

It's so frustrating. I really want to stop myself. But at the same I want it. 

She's like my drug. Like seriously. I want her. I want to be with her. But then society won't allow us. 

We both want it but I don't think we're supposed to. 

Should I rebel against the people around me and just pursue what I want with her? 

We promised that this would be the last time but if it would happen..now...I can't guarantee that it would be thelast. 

Why is it this hard? Can't I just do what I want?