soooooo i guess im in a deep because i KINDA have this tiiiiiiiiny little crush on my classmate? BUT EHHHHH I STILL CANT BRAIN THIS???? its actually ridiculous because im a new student ffs how can i like someone i barely know? bet its physical attraction ugh and i freaking hate mysef for this :-) but when i come to think of it, its not exactly that la.. i started to think that hes so precious when he talked about his sick father to his friend like idk he looks so sad and i just want to comfort the hell out of him but i cant because im scared. and im not lying when i said im scared of him hahaha.

he's popular. im just a speck of dust within the galaxy cewahhh lol no jkjk. its because im ugly, cliche as heck isnt it? but yeah. im lack of self esteem to be honest but who wouldnt?? with acnes all around my face... smh. and ooohhh hehehe we have the same bag by the way!! and people in class kinda ship us lmao they would swap our bags and ill be confused asf because his bag smells exactly like him. i sound like one sasaeng fan kan HAHAHAHA. tapi for real ah he smells really good. and he's very tall too!!! ugh. im 157 cm (short i know) and i have to look up to him. can you freaking imagine how long his legs are!!! its unfair, donate some of your heights la!!!! so yea we never really exchange words pun.

and its been 3 weeks kan since school started? and 3 weeks tu aku memang tak pernah berbual dengan dia but then!!!! on last friday. i went to school sebab nak kemas kelas apa semua tu and apparently he was there as well. aku chill jela kan huhuh. i lifted up the desks apa semua and dia pun tolong sekali. i have no friends actually kat sekolah, i mean, no one to pour my thoughts on la ha gitu. takde yang betul betul rapat. so aku angkat meja sorang sorang without any help dari tingkat 3 sampai bawah. dah la meja berat lulz thanks to all those taekwondo exercise i could actually lift the desk up without whining and without boys' help. so lepas dah angkat meja tu i stayed in the class buat origami.

the other girls tgh ganti aku angkat meja since aku dah ulang alik banyak kali and i just need to rest so yea. aku buat la origami tu sorang sorang lepastu dia tiba tiba datang, drag the nearest chair lepastu duduk depan aku. the same desk. and i dont know at that point i was nervous as hell i swear. and then he looked at me before he asked me how to do the origami. so then i taught him and my voice was so shaky it was actually really funny since i usually never stutter around boys. and then we talked for a bit, he was complaining about.. uh idk i forgot because i was soooo mesmerized HAHAHAHA. to say that im flattered is acceptable because hey he didnt even bother helping those girls who were struggling with the desk and went to me instead. MEEEEE???? and then the other boys started coming too and thats when they all realize that i click so well with them because of my (little) tomboyish attitude. lmaoooo but yeah

im still in a DEEP for having feelings for him.