I was actually in a really bad mood earlier and got bitter as over something I shouldn't be mad about because there's honestly just no reason to be mad

that was really vague LOL I keep a lot of things vague in my blog posts to be honest... well sometimes things are vague and other times there's way too much detail but O.o anyways moving on

I'm a very nostalgic (is that even the right word in this context) person... sometimes I look back on something... it can be literally anything: a person, object of any sort, daydream, etc, and it brings back so many memories, sometimes good, sometimes bad, sometimes a combination of the two and a variety of emotions in between.  and regardless of what the memories are, if I think about them for too long, I won't be able to stop and I'll get caught up in all of the feels and I won't be able to push myself out, if that makes sense... I get lost in my thoughts and become really nostalgic and unfeeling (but feeling too much at the same time) and regretful and... I don't really know how to explain it ._.

but anyways, that's honestly one of the biggest reasons why I don't listen to Super Junior nearly as much as I did in the past.  they were the first group I really liked and they're still my ultimate bias group to this day, even though they're on hiatus and it's debatable that they're not as popular right now as they used to be... unfortunately DDDDDDDDDDDDDD; but basically, listening to any Super Junior from any era or watching any of their videos brings back so many memories from previous years (yep my 2 years and a few months of the kpop world LOL) and from times when I didn't know kpop existed, but they still existed and I wasn't around to see everything or I was too young and wouldn't have understood anyways.  I'm reluctant to listen to Super Junior because it makes me very emotional and happy and nostalgic and a lot of other things all at once and I kinda hate feeling that way because... sometimes, feeling emotions is... too hard for me to deal with?  and... I guess I don't like feeling raw emotions

okay this is terribly hard to explain because I don't know how to explain it to myself and I don't really know LOL ANYWAYS MOVING ON TO WHAT I WAS ACTUALLY GONNA TALK ABOUT

can we just take a moment to appreciate Super Junior and KRY and the Sorry Sorry era and everything omfg Super Junior is horribly underrated these days and okay I'm just gonna leave these here

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zoV8pf6vhY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a507jISnumU

these made me feel old feels that I was reluctant to feel again and that sentence doesn't make any sense what okay I'm gonna stop

it's almost 3 am LOL but we have a three day weekend so XD