My grades turned out to be good, much better than I have expected and it was certainly a pleasant surprise. I got confused for a while because I thought they made a mistake in giving me a distinction for Combined Humanities as I was really bad in it, then when I realized what was happening I started crying. Then I said, "Can I throw this at my instructor?", and they said, "Yes!". I can't forget how my female instructor looked down on me and thinking that I couldn't achieve a perfect L1R5 even if I didn't join the competition. I can't forget how they said, "You are always having examinations, but there is only one chance to participate in this competition." I agree, but do you have to be that mean? Why couldn't you fully understand the importance of this national examination? There are many dance competitions that I could participate in after I train for a few more years and improve my technique, do you have to force it on me? You want me to retake my examinations if I didn't do well enough to qualify for my ideal courses? (My grades aren't that bad, but competition is really intense) 

I wonder what would happen if I wasn't expelled from the team. Maybe my instructors would have celebrated this with me, and we would go for a meal to celebrate this. Maybe I will continue to suffer in the dance team, thinking that it's normal to suffer in the dance industry even when I'm unhappy. Maybe the break from the dance team will get me hyped up for dance lessons and I would be more passionate for dance lessons. I wouldn't show my grades to my instructors just to prove them wrong, I am satisfied that I did good enough to qualify for a spot in my ideal junior colleges, relieved that my worst fears weren't true, happy that those grades were the best I have gotten. Even as I think of the events that happened yesterday, I still feel emotional.