bucko there are some pretty great comments below so ill keep this short and succinct
ur talents as a writer are fantastic and ur also a pretty fantastic person
take things at ur own pace ?? dw that ur fics are on draft if u need to step back and breathe a lil ??
after all this entire aff thing is a hobby and if its not the Most Important Thing tm ever in ur life thats ok !!
i care for u bucko and if u ever wanna talk more just hmu for my kkt or w/e mya

first and foremost. i love you. i'm so tactless when it comes to showing my appreciation for my friends, and i wish i could find a more creative way to show how much i deeply care for you, but i'm always blunt and careless with my words...so... i've told you that you're the big sister i wish i had but never got so many times and the statement remains true. you're one of the few people i truly respect and regard in such high value, and if it weren't for people like you, i'd have left this place and never returned. you are among those that remind me why i enjoy writing so much and when i talk to you, i find myself cherishing every moment. you're important to each and everyone of us, and multiple times, you've helped bring out the best in us whether it be in terms of writing, or just as human beings in general. hell, you're practically my beloved moral compass, and i think that's pretty ing amazing since i'm a) borderline amoral and b) savage af. you mean a lot to all of us, and we treasure you so much... my offer stands: if you need me to rip someone, i'm literally one kkt text away. i'll fight anyone who so much as makes you feel uncomfortable, because we all know how ty and toxic this community is and there's really no reason to hide what's obvious... we're all one kkt text away. the meme dream team, and your squad with minjung... we're always here if you need to talk and of course we care. and if anyone claims to hate you, they can kiss my ing fist. they can kiss my ing fist 10 times. please believe in yourself...and in our compliments... you know how meticulous i am...and you're one of the few i truly look up to, not solely because of your age, but because of your pure talent as a writer. a break is good... just breathe for a while and separate yourself from all the negativity and the storm on this community. we'll always be here though. and we love you.

i love and support you, mom <3 always *jimin eyesmile*
[SIRENS BLARE AND DOGS BARK] DREAM MEME TEAM!!!!!!

i miss you bby boo
and i hope you get better soon
omg i realized that just rhymed-
but on a more serious note
i really do hope you better
we all care about you and we'll welcome you back with open arms

we'll be waiting

i'm not sure what's the best course of responding to this, but i know i need to or i'll beat myself up. i guess the best thing i can say is to not be so hard on yourself. i know it's difficult to see positive aspects of your personality or to be the ideal person you see so far away but a common trait of humanity is that we're unsatisfied. we make demands that are insatiable and too difficult and stressful for ourselves. our mental states are fragile, way too difficult to comprehend even for ourselves and, well... i don't even know where i'm going with this.

i guess i'm just afraid of what could happen if i don't say the right things. please be kind on yourself, find the path that not only quenches your fiery demands but also satisfies yourself and what your interests are. things take time and though you may feel you're constantly running out of it, that's not the case. looking at all these inspirational paragraphs below me, you should find more solace in those. i know we don't talk much so i'm not sure how well i'm approaching this for you but...here's to accomplishing your resolution. you deserve the best possible life and the most happiness.

as ur fellow older person on aff i just want u to know that ur not alone in this feeling, the anxiety and the blueness and the confusion and the sort of detachment ig??
maybe it's just a part of growing up, and now that we're at this age we're starting to look at life beyond our own personal interests and having to decide between what's important vs. what we want and finding a balance between them, and it's hard bc it doesn't feel like we're adults but at the same time it doesn't feel like we're kids either so figuring out what to prioritize is difficult.
i'm rly not sure what my point is haha but yeah i think that it's a perfectly natural, normal feeling: not having everything on track and things not going the way you want to and feeling anxious about it and u know it's okay
i think in the end we all don't rly know what we're doing we're just figuring things out as we go along. everything's a learning experience and it's okay to feel sad or nervous about it like u don't have to make this big change all at once. just take things one step at a time and u'll get there in not time.
and in regards to ur fics it's no problem if u want to step back for a bit, take things at ur own pace, and figure things out for urself. what's more important is that ur feeling fine with urself like we all came here because we want to enjoy ourselves. it shouldn't start feeling like some obligation or a pressure weighing down on u. don't feel bad for wanting to look out for #1 (that's u).

much like u said ur post was, this comment is word vomit-y as well and i'm not rly sure if i grasped the message of ur post but i hope that this helps u and that u can make sense of this and if not well then i'm with u there too
and yes #rideordie u know me and mj will always be around for u to talk to we're just one kkt message away even if i am ty w replies bc fuq timezones u know

but yeah ilu hit me up whenever

ok mya prepare urself here is my word vomit response
im not rlly sure where to start because there are so many things i want to say and its ??? where do i begin
i guess i'll start by saying that i'm pretty much a fetus and you probably shouldn't take what i say too seriously. but i think i get what you mean, that writing high (i'm like 80% sure that's what's happening to me right now) and of course the ty fall afterward.
i know nothing about adult stuff, but you seem like you would do just fine with that, and even if you feel like you're ing up, you are your own harshest critic so.
keep that in mind.
honestly all of this internet stuff makes you feel like that once you've left and come back - it's addicting, which is nasty as all hell, but it's also a relief from real life. i dunno, sometimes it sticks again, sometimes you try to get back into it and you end up dropping it. decide based on what is best for you. if aff is making you frustrated and upset then GET AWAY LOG OUT RIGHT NOW THAT SHOULD NOT BE HAPPENING.
the most important thing in your life is you. remember that forever and always. smile down at your in the toilet because it's amazing. because it's yours. because you are an amazing person.
(i think i manage to stay away from a lot of because my head is constantly screaming 'HOly IM SO TALENTED AND PRETTY AND AMAZING AND WONDERFUL IM A BLESSING U LOVE ME DONT LIE' which on the other hand might not be entirely healthy either but - this is about you)
if you need to take a break from family and other people to focus on yourself - even if it's just treating urself to ice cream and a really nice bath - dO IT.
in the end this is all fiction and ur happiness comes above anything else. so dont bother urself with it if it's not good enough to make u happy.
i think i lost my point here and im running out of characters
so just-
be happy, mya.
the only place to go from the bottom is up.

first of all i love u and u will 4ever be my aunt as odd as it is
anyway, i hope u could decipher my actual intention and sincerity from these slab of words but i know u will bc ur mya and u know whats good??? it's u ok
ANYWAY, I KNOW WHAT U FEEL!!!! LIKE THATS ME!!!! MOST OF THE TIME ACTUALLY!!!!!!!!! especially once i venture on something i just end up leaving it behind but i think thats what u feel or maybe thats me now i don't know what 2 say rip
i had a lot of thoughts when it comes to leaving aff and the applyfic world since i assume it's very time consuming and i should be focusing on better things like real life and all that. i, too, am very disorganized but i try to fix them as much as possible. but then i get lured by the temptation of writing fics and apps that i have unintentionally neglected my priorities. for some reason, this place is my stress reliever. i've been too stressed and pressured by school, drowning in the works and obligations i have as a graduating student and once i get too caught up in things that aren't supposed to be prioritized, that's when i realise that my life is, well, a mess. i get so frustrated and really dejected over myself and my habits. why I'm not doing this, why I'm not doing that blah blah blah tons of bull i go through every single day blah blah blah. but yeah i don't know the conclusion to this but what I'm trying to say is that this is just a phase (i believe) and I'm proud of you for being able to find a solace despite your supposedly disorganized self ??????? idk lmao but yeah i don't even know the purpose of this long post but ah
BUT YEAH I MISS U

I care.
we all do.
please don't turn aff into pressure ;
take a break whenever needed.
we'll all be here when you're back <3

hey dear
it's been such a long time since we talked to each other
hope life's good on u
and honestly, don't be too hard on yourself when it comes to applyfics
it's an entertainment, somewhat?
i'm starting to think that way, that applyfics doesn't hold that much importance for my future