no, this blog won't be some sort of rant page or something like that because i'm done with those kind of stuff. rather, this blog is going to be about me.

i notice this a lot whenever i'm talking to some of my friends and family. i guess it's just a part of my character... and i don't know if i should be sad or proud of myself.

every time i talk to someone about something that i really like, i tend to talk a lot about stuff that i know about it. i also share a lot of seemingly unnecessary things like even the smallest details and things that i did for that something that i like and other stuff like that. i dont know if it's just me who feels this way in conversations like that, but i feel like i'm a bit of a show-off... oh wait, maybe i'm a huge showoff and i don't even know it.

well, maybe now i do. i confirmed it myself. it's a bit biased to make such a conclusion about me when i don't even know how the other - the person i'm talking to - feels but i'm guessing if i heard it from another person i just won't stop thinking about it.

so basically my problem is, i feel like a show-off for talking (or bragging) too much about something that i like that it's making the other person feel uncomfortable and annoyed. this is just a product of thinking too much so i don't even know if that really is the case. but i noticed it. it's probably at least partly true.

i'm thinking of changing this... bad? attitude because it's actually kind of making me uncomfortable now thinking about what the other may think. i know like 'be yourself' and 'express who you are' are really inspirational and comforting but man, one should always take into account how the other person may feel while talking to you. if he/she is like part of the family and all of a sudden he/she stops talking to you, it'll get you all worked up and confused. i don't want anything like that to happen. i could post blogs like this about random stuff i want to share about the stuff that i'm a fan of. no one would really judge me, right? after all, it's my blog post...

anyway, i made this to get it off my chest and mind. hopefully it'll work because i don't want to wake up to a massive headache LOL

oh, and exo will be having a 2-day concert here in our country!!! d-12 OMG thinking about it gets me all psyched and revved up. i can't believe i'll be sleeping in the same city with my boys T_T hahahahaha omg was that creepy? i bet it was. i don't even know if i can sleep just thinking about something so exciting. LOL to all the hardcore fans planning on checking in the same hotel as exo, well, i'm genuinely very happy for you guys LOL just don't creep them out like me hahahahaha

uni is also going to start soon. it'll be my first time enrolling online so i don't know how that'll turn out but it seems pretty convenient. i'm planning on applying for a scholarship so my parents can save a lot of money. it won't be a full scholarship but as long as i don't pay full, i am fine with that. i'm quite uncomfortable just thinking about how much money they spend to get me to college. it's not that i'm complaining or anything like that but i sometimes think i don't deserve it... but since i am already living this privilege, i might as well think that i did something to deserve something this monumental. as a way of thanks to my parents i'll do everything i can to get that scholarship and hopefully i'll become a dean's lister next semester ^^ 

i guess i did pretty well last semester but during the prelim period i was kind of all over the place. i failed one course during the prelim period (the cut-off grade was 60 and i got a 59 LOL) but i guess it's no big deal... i managed to get 80 for finals just trying to redeem that 1 percent and boy did i do that right LOL

if i managed to do something so great maybe i can get a higher grade next sem and hopefully snatch that scholarship and win a place in the dean's list.

i'm also thinking about becoming a topnotcher for the psychometrician exam but that's pretty far from now. but it's nice to have these specific and somehow s.m.a.r.t. goals. LOL

these goals motivate me everyday :D and the people i love inspire me~ hehehehe

so thats one blog for today.

ALSO, THERE ARE ONLY A FEW HOURS LEFT TIL GOOD MYTHICAL MORNING SEASON 9!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF YOURE ALSO A FAN HIT ME UP LOL

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