I HATE INTERNET!

I seriously think the most hateful, rude, and annoying people in the WORLD come and attack me fore stating my opinion---so I'm a quiet person in real life. Like I don't say much, I'm an introvert, and SUPER shy and awkward around strangers.

The internet is where I can be free. I was asked once: "Why do I write"? My answer was: "It's the only way to let go of my emotions and feel at peace". So there's definitely a lot of sad endings and angsty things I write sometimes.

I feel like I can't do anything. I have no friends and no friend in the real world, either. I have a problem with trusting people and when I open up...I get kind of ignored. I don't know if people mean to...but...yeah lol. I only have a few good internet friends whom mean the world to me <3

So here I am at 2:44am writing down my sorrows while listening to SHINee's "DxDxD". Man, if I didn't have SHINee, God, and my family--I would be a wreck.

I'm kinda hurting right now and very sad and angry...so yeah. I really want to quit! GET ME AWAY FROM TWITTER!! I want to LEAVE THE INTERNET!! Just get away from it all...the haters...the people that curse and say hurtful things...all of it.

I'm tempted to stop writing, stop my blog, stop everything. But, of course, I won't. My blog (which is about SHINee) is my happiness retreat. Stories (which aren't good) and Twitter...on the other hand...I might quit. I don't know...we'll see...

-T4L

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Layni17 #1
Yo, I completely understand you. Originally? I wrote for anime an manga because I was actually depressed when I was 10-11 years old- I wasn't diagnosed 'cause I'm great at hiding , but my oldest sister was diagnosed and we were the exact same way. I'd always loved reading, so I went, well, my two older sister write, I can try it too. And thus started my adventure. Originally, it was a lot of Bleach and Naruto, Hetalia and that stuff. And there was this one fic in particular that got A LOT of hate.Finally I said, you know what? this and told everyone I was deleting my account, and then BAM, it was gone. But you know what? I know, just ENTIRELY regret my decision. It wasn't worth hurting all of my gorgeous, supportive fans for those s who have nothing better to do. I can't believe that negativity was able to make me get rid of something I really loved. So, I'm going to tell you this now, when you get over the hurt and the pain you'll realize there was no reason for it in the first place, because those people had no right to make you feel the way you did, and we, as authors, have to learn that we can't let those things get us down. If you love writing, then nothing should be able to make you stop. I don't want you to go through my pain and regret after getting rid of it.
Love,
Tsuki
ForeverJinKook #2
I agree with you...This woman commented on my blog to ask me "Why do my stories ?" and she cursed at me afterwards and I had to delete every story of mine and all of my accounts, I blocked her and made another acc which is this, not even my stupid af family understands how I feel. I permanently hate the internet and everything else. Bangtan and K-Pop saved my life. So, I agree with you sista~~!
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