For this to make like any sense at all I need to stress the fact I have extreemly vivid dreams as a side effect of meditation for a number of unrelated problems. When I dream it isnt quite lucid yet im conscious of my decisions and understand future consequences and possible outcomes in the scenario, despite this I often act comsulsivly and unrealistically anyway... so not lucid. XD interestingly these dreams are often realistic concepts taking place in unrealistic scenarios E.G. I once made out with V (feasible kinda) during a shooting at my UK school by a little girl (crazy) 

Any way, to the point. Last night I found myself in a spacecraft exactly like the ARC(/k?) in the 100 (if anyone has seen it this info may help). So im in space wondering why the hell as I look onto the earth below myself.

Sudenly, I realise im in open air (yes in space) and, like a fair ground ride, the craft is spinning as I try to hold on. This goes on for a while and im pretty sure im going to die at this point. There are people around me and as I fall back into my seat I realise that Kim Jongin is like beside me. Because my dreams are so crazy vivid you can imagine my shook, because dream me is crazy you can imagine the crap going through my head too.

I collapsed on his lap (my head was on his crotch!) And kinda relaxed as I was still dissy from all the spinning. It was really like... nice.... like I was content and happy and so so trippy tbh. Still, as I laid there I felt him kiss my head (hair... strange but cute) and like it was the best ive ever felt... it kinda feels real. Then he did it again.. and again... and again.  Until I got up from his lap and looked into his chestnut brown eyes and kissed his lips instead.

Heres the bad bit. He looked at me a bit weird and then said "I cant" as I moved to the side.... from there on out its an awkward blur. Like I also remember his reason was to do with my age (im like "bish im legal" hes not even that much older) still it freaking hurt and I hate the way dream kai's lips were so soft and he smelled so... manly... it was a particular scent tbh... probs linx XD.

So subconsciously I rejected myself through some other persona... what does that say about me.

TL;DR: Kai came on to me in my dream and then rejected my advace. Im now questioning my view on my self XD

Also, allot of my friends find my weird dreaming cool and ask for instructions regarding my meditation (I have to meditate due to my crazy crazy mind and its over active crap) so if anyone has questions regarding how to dream about cool like: going all the way with your bias and not getting rejected, id be happy to explain some of my practices. Still its not actually fun, I mostly have vivid nightmares... so warning if I cause you to dream of it aint my fault XD

Love you guys! Dream well!