appearancebeauty deeper than skin

Lee Haewon weighs roughly 55kg and stands at about 170cm, but she's losing weight fast on account of a number of things. Her hair, wich used to be full, soft, and glossy, is slowly becoming greasy, brittle, and thin. Her skin is pale, and she has dark circle uner her eyes which she tries to eliminate with skin products and hide with makeup. Despite these, though, she can really be seen as beautiful- Her hair is currently a dyed light brown with various neon highlights, including orange, blue, and pink, but she's willing to go back to her natural brown. Recently she had wine red hair, and though she loved it she had it for so long she decided to change. She's also willing to dye is pure black, or to take out her highlights- She just feels they give some oomph. Haewon also isn't against blonde if her boyfriend wants it. Her body is pretty thin, because of her weight, and the amount she has mostly go to her C-cup s- Which she's proud of, by the way.

  

Lee Haewon is the kind of girl who shows off everything. Crop tops, miniskirts, tight leather and skinny jeans- She doesn't care, so long as it can be considered y. Her favorite outfit has to be her purple corset halter top paired with her best, low-waisted jeans. Haewon is very self-conscious about her appearance in general, but when it comes to her clothes it the one place where she couldn't care less- If she's working so hard to have the perfect body, she doesn't mind if people see her "work-in-progress." Haewon does care majorly about her makeup, though.

Never caked on but always a little heavier than most, Haewon can make any look work wen it comes to makeup. Sharp, angled looks are great, but she does smoky looks just as well. Haewon really loves to do nail art, from cute cats to something really amazing and cool. She likes to show off every skill she has- And all of her marks as well, which she has a lot of. If she can show a new bruise or cut, she's a happy person- Haewon isn't ashamed of her addiction, though her boyfriend is a little more so. Many people think "That poor girl!" when they see her, but Haewon simply laughs at their ignorance- Aren't they pretty?

personalitythe good and bad

Positive: Hardworking, honest, genuine, intuitive, ambitious
Neutral: Loyal, emotional, opinionated, perfectionist
Negative: Overly critical, blunt, aggressive, hot-tempered, irresponsible

Hardworking || If there's one thing that Haewon has always been, then that would be hardworking. This girl always puts one-hundred percent of herself into every single task she does, no exceptions. This work ethic has always been a great selling point about her, because she doesn't give up and does everything she's told to well. There's never anything half-assed about her work, because she sees no point in not making perfect the first time.

Perfectionist || Unfortuantely, oftentimes this perfectionist mindset is her downfall, because everything has to be perfect. She has an obsessive personality in this way, and it's something that destroys her entirely. She has to be perfectly marred- Isn't that the best beauty? Everything has to be exactly how it should, and everything has to be perfect the first time. If not, it's done again and again until it gets there.

Honest || Haewon is always honest. She doesn't lie about anything- Lying  creates discrepancies which causes imperfections which is unacceptable. She also doesn't see the point in lying- If you did something or know something, then say it right out- Don't "protect" others by ing yourself over or getting them into more by messing up their plan or whatever. Just be honest.

Overly critical || Even still, that mentality really makes her overly critical about every and any little thing. Whether it be directed towards herself her boyfriend, a family member, a friend, or a damn stranger, it doesn't matter. She will nitpick at everything about you, and overall make you feel like because she seriously doesn't care about if it upsets you. Haewon will always find something wrong with a person, project, object, etc.

Opinionated || This is because she's opinionated. Growing up the way she did, you had to speak out to ever be heard. You had to be clear and precise, and thus she learned how to say what she wanted, needed, and felt. She knew that to survive, you had to have your opinions and get them across. Even though she doesn't live that kind of life anymore, it's ingrained in her mind, and it's there to stay.

Blunt || Haewon has become blunt with this kind of mindset. Honestly, she doesn't hold back on her opinions and her criticism is harsh and plain- "That color makes you look like you like puke," or "You're at this, just stop." She doesn't mind hurting other's feelings if it means telling them what wrong with them. One of the other issues with this is, she doesn't tell them how to improve or fix. She simply says what she thinks, and that's that.

Hot-tempered || She has an awful temper. Haewon isn't the kind that can count to ten and back off. Oh no, she'd rip your head off first. She's very quick to anger and lets that anger build up inside of her until it's ready for her to beat the hell out of someone. Haewon's not afraid to yell until is sore, and of course she's not afraid to get into a fist fight. Honestly, she's the girl that every parent was afraid their child would turn into- A delinquent of sorts.

Ambitious || Somewhat expectedly, Haewon is ambitious. She sets high goals and works as hard as she can to get there. She's not the kind to set her standards low for anything, and her goals are always as high as they can be. She tests her limits to the brink and always comes back to do better and go higher than the last time.

Genuine || These ambitions have made her a genuine person. She really means what she says, and her actions are done for a very clear reason. Much like her honesty, Haewon's just a genuine person. She doesn't lie or fake anything, she is who she is and that's it. It's something that people really appreciate, because she'd never be fake for them and she shows who she is.

Loyal || Another half-and-half aspect of Haewon is her loyalty. She's loyal to the people she loves and respects, and could never do anything to betray them. This can be a very bad thing, and has been used against her- Haewon has found herself walked all over in the past, which is where her temper has really stemmed from. Even still, Haewon finds herself loyal to a select few people.

Emotional || Haewon is emotional. She cries at the littlest things and gets angry over everything. She can sway her mood one way for the other quickly. It's kind of ridiculous in a sense, since she honestly can let go of any of her other emotions in an instant just because of a few words or a sudden situation. She's easily swayed with her emotions.

Intuitive || This girl is definitely intuitive. Just one look at a person, one sentence spoken, or as soon as someone walks into the room, will tell Haewon if there's something wrong with them. Seriously, her intuition is amazing and she has the best gut-feeling you'll ever find. She's always the first to know when there's something up, and she's always paying attention to her surroundings.

Irresponsible || Despite being an adult, Haewon is irresponsible. She doesn't take care of herself at all, doesn't make any attempt to take care of her various injuries, she's always losing her job and she doesn't even give a - She's the definition of irresponsible. The only reason the bills get paid is because her boyfriend does it. Haewon doesn't care enough to take care of things.

Aggressive || Above all of Lee Haewon's personality traits, there is one that stands out and is fueled by most of the rest- Haewon is extremely aggressive. Her motto is "Punch first, flip off later." And normally she's too busy hitting to get to that last part. She's addicted to violence, and lives off of injuries (This will be expanded on later). If you know Lee Haewon, she's probably hit you at least once. She's not against dirty fighting in the slightest. She, simply, is a violent and aggressive person.

backgroundthe past that shapes us

When Lee Haewon was born to Kim Youra and Lee Jaehyun, a pair of sixteen-year-olds who literally gave zero s, she was sent to be raised by her mother's brother. Unfortunately, her uncle was poor, and the living conditions were not anything near ideal for a child. With that in mind, he begged his sister to at least send him some money if she and Jaehyun would not take their daughter back, but they stubbornly refused to have anything to do with her. Left with no other choice, Kim Jaeseok was forced to give his niece to an orphanage, hoping that she could have a better life than his moldy aparment and a meal every few days. Haewon did, in fact, do somewhat better, and Jaeseok made the effort to visit her when he could. Unfortunately, growing up in an orphanage was never ideal.

Haewon went to school and got perfect grades, tons of praise, and had many friends. Her life at school was perfect, one that she never wanted to leave. But as soon as the older kids from the orphanage came to pick her up, that perfect world ended and she went back to a place where she didn't matter and she couldn't be nice anymore. Haewon learned quickly to stand up for herself, cook, and do anything she could to survive. Her uncle Jaeseok was saving up money to get her back in his care, workign as many jobs as he could manage until he could have his precious baby girl back. Haewon looked forward so his visits, because he would get permission to take her out of the orphanage, where she had the opportunity to feel like she had a family.

When she was thirteen, Jaeseok died in a car accident. He had been driving her back to the orphanage. He was in a coma for three days while Haewon suffered from various broken bones and a serious concussion. Her uncles' will had given everything to her, as Jaeseok had assumed she wuold be an adult when he died. All of his property and money were given to his mother for protection until Haewon was a legal adult, and it was most of this money that paid for Haewon's surgeries. She was in the hospital for longer than she should have been, as her nutrition was poor and thus her body was weak. Haewon was stuck in the hospital for months, and when she was released it was to a foster home as her orphanage was deemed bad for her situation.

At this foster home, there were three older kids and one younger. The younger was was only a baby, a newborn who had lost her parents in a fire. The three older kids were in their later teens and absolutely hated her. Haewon was often bullied into not eating her food, into pretending like everything was her fault, and basically they did anything they could to make her life hell. Haewon, after a few months, refused to be used like that, and started to hit back. If the oldest girl yanked her hair? A slap straight to her face. The boy pushed her? , you're coming down with me- And under me. Despite these troubles at home, plus the grieving of her uncle's death, Haewon still did her best in school and had friends. It was after school that she learned eactly of her addiction.

Lee Haewon was absolutely in love with getting hit and hitting back. She craved the violence of the darkened allyways, the thrill of getting into a serious fight- Not some ty -fit with her foster siblings. It wasn't long before the whole school learned of her constant fights, and she lost many friends. As more and more people left her, Haewon's grades started to drop until she was baerly passing. She had no clue why- Really, Haewon was smart and she did good work, so why was she suddenly so inadequate at everything she did? Haewon was so happy when high school ended and she was kicked out of her foster home. This was when she met Lee Taemin- The boy she would start dating in two weeks. But that's another story- The only other thing to say? Her life only got worse.

relationshipslove is a blessing or a curse

Kim Areum || Best friend (FC: Seunghee of CLC)

Areum is Haewon's only friend, but God they're so close. Without Areum, Haewon would surely be dead by now. They were roommmates at the orphanage, but Areum ended up adopted. They're totally honest with each other, and Areum knows about Haewon's addiction. She doesn't approve, of course, but she tries to support Areum and Taemin the best she can. She knows that they both need help, and does what she can to provide that. She's always trying to make sure they eat, take care of their injuries, etc. Areum really is in pain when she sees them- She loves them both (Areum is Taemin's former coworker) and just wants them to be happy.

Lee Taemin|| Boyfriend

Lee Taemin is many things to Lee Haewon- A lover, a friend, a boyfriend, a problem starter, and an absolute addiction. Honestly? Lee Taemin is everything Haewon ever needed but hated in her life. Just how did these two meet? Well, when you're both poor and are looking for a roommate, isn't another ed-up teen a pretty good choice? The first meeting was pretty awkward- From Haewon's point of view, "Holy hell, he's a ing stick and really ing hot." while for Taemin it wad "Damn, those bruises are harsh. What a way to mar a pretty face, I guess."

When Taemin met Haewon, she had a general aversion for food. After living with Taemin, the two have all but developed anorexia- But that's not their biggest issue, though it is a large one. They repeatedly admit that they're unbelieveably ed up- Why? Because these two are completely addicted to violence- Abuse, hitting each other. An unsafe sado-maso relationship, I suppose you could describe it as. They willing and joyfully raise each other's blood pressure, angering the other until they just can't take it and fists are out. Bruises are the things that Haewon likes to show off the most, and Taemin will gladly give her some to show and vice versa.

It's amazing, how they just can so happily mark each other, hurt them until they're a bloody mess. They've never mae the other pass out or anything- Taemin swore to himself that if it ever got to that point, that he would stop, that he would change and that things would get better. But they're never gotten there, and until them Taemin will enjoyed the life he's leading. It's awful, yes, but an addiction is an addiction, an it's what they have together. A relationship of convenience. Accountability. They put each other in that state. They have to stay for it.



 

name: Lee Haewon (이해원)

birthday: Maarch 18th, 1993

birthplace: Seoul, South Korea

ethnicity: Korean

languages: Korean (Fluent, native)

occupation: Night club waitress

love interest: Lee Taemin

faceclaim: Yeorem of Hello Venus

backup faceclaim: Lee Sungkyung (Model)

othersIodine, maybe? Or Butterfly.