I think the loneliest thing in the world is being there for someone to the very best of your ability and it isn't good enough for them because they have their own expectations. I can't fix your problem, I've stopped shouldering the weight of the world but I will be there to listen and understand and stay by your side for it all. I won't run away when you explain the terrors in your mind, I won't judge or look at you differently. I know you're going through a hard time but if you could understand that it does affect the people around you especially the ones who love you the most. I can't pretend everything is perfectly okay and create the happy environment and ignore that somethiing is bothering you. I rather us be quiet together thann me forcing a mood on you. It really hurt when I'm trying to be there for you and be understanding but because it isn't what you  want, you lash out and say that you don't expect anythng from me. Have I failed you that badly or is nothing I try to do ever appreciated or good enough for you? 

I've swallowed my pride countless times with you. I hate fighting with you. This morning I wasn't looking for an argument or anything, I was just quiet. I hope you find it in your heart and your mind that is in turmoil to realise I would give anything to remove the chaos of your thoughts and I am trying to be here for you in whatever ways I could. 

I'm human too though...