Hey, remember me? 

I used to be your best friend. Keyword: USED TO

I dont blame you though. Everyone tends to leave me.

But you know what I find funny? For a moment, I thought someone in my life would actually stay. Silly me. We were so close that it makes me sad. 

"Didnt you guys used to be the best of friend?" breaks my heart every ing time. 

You know I dont play cheesy, I dont acknowledge anyone as my 'bestfriend' to others, bcs no one need to know that.

I thought after 3 years, I could actually believe that we would stay forever. Hahaha funny thing  

Funny how suddenly you just woke, decided not to talk me, left me without a word. We met every single day, but why wont you even look into my eyes? 

And then one day. You wrote me a letter. 

"Im sorry but you must have been bored of me. Maybe its better this way."

im sorry but you. i thought you would understand me but no. 

Sometimes I wish i didnt get invloved with people. I should've just left the at hello and keep moving.

We havent spoke in so long when its just 4 months but i feels like a year to me. Do you even miss me? I see you every single day, trying to just get a single eyecontact, but you wont.

Fine by me i guess hahah when was i ever not okay right? 

I hate how we ended, how bad it gotten. The pain we've caused each other. 

I knew I was at fault. I was too boring. I cant express myself well. I've a poker face 24/7. Im sorry. 

We used to be full of hope. Its been really hard to let you go. Irony isnt it? When you've let me go ages ago. 

But just because we dont talk anymore, doesnt mean I dont care about you. Truth is, I still do. I do my best to check on you, see how you're doing. To see if you're okay and everytime i have the urge to talk to you, it hits me that we're now just strangers.

You dont want me in your life. 

But I just want you to know that, I'll always be here for you. To lend you my shoulders to lean on, and ears to listen to. 

You know, 

I still love the people I've loved even if I cross the streets just to avoid you.

Because it hurts. To see you hanging out with others. Caring about her way more than you used to.

But its okay.

The feeling is numb. 

Because you do know I've been left several times. You know it.

I miss you. Not in some cheesy way. 

I just miss your presence by my side and vice versa. 

But I know you're doing good. And Im happy for you.

The words I've never said directly to you, 

thank you. 

 

 

p.s im sorry but i just feel like letting it go. i should not be this hurt, i know. i went through this. not once. but sometimes, we need to let things out.