I’m just going to type random things from now on since I don’t have any idea to continue with my fanfic. Oh hi everyone, I’m _burningwife_ and well, I’m hiding behind this name. Burning wife, yes burning wife I choose this name because I’m a huge fan of Lee Jong Hyun, CNBLUE. As we know, he’s code name blue is Burning, so I tend to call him burning, and I’m his wife. Hahaha I hope you guys are not mad with me because instead of updating my fic, I post random things haha to be honest, I don’t have anyone except my readers, well of course I have my family but, there are some things I don’t want to share with my family right?

I have this one big thing keep hidden deep inside my heart. I feel hurt of some things around me; I’m so emotional these days. I keep crying.

Well, actually. Well, I don’t think I have any problems with my classmates (some of it) but I feel like they have something against me. I don’t know what that something but I can actually sense that they’re avoiding me. Not avoiding, but more to make me feel isolated. And yes I do.

I keep on thinking about positive things. When they didn’t reply my smile, I will just assume that they didn’t see me, or they are having bad eye, like me. And when I’m presenting in front, they didn’t pay attention to me, I feel hurt because I DO PAY ATTENTION to their presentation!

And they underestimate my ability to join any competition, well I can do it but they keep saying like I’m not good at it and put my dignity under their shoes.

And even in group chat, they ignore me too wow good job you just showed me your immaturity.

Well, such things made me cry for several days. Now, I just want to disappear from their sight.

I don’t get it why people tend to discuss about MY FAULT and MY MISTAKES instead of discussing it with me, the one they got problem with.

Why do you need to make me feel isolated?

Why?

Am I not a human too?

What sins I have done that I have to receive such treatment?

What did I do?

I’m trying to please everyone but, everyone does not even try to please me.

I’m not saying that I’m good enough but, yes have some humanity inside you guys.

I feel like I’m mentally bullied hahhaha it sounds funny though I know.

I’m currently trying to ease my heart by saying they’re jealous of me. Hahaha

I’m happy with some of classmates actually there are some that are very nice to me and we even stay in the same house.

Well, some people in my class are not.

Just.

Don’t regret what you’ve done to me.

That’s all.

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