It's funny to think that you broke down in front of your laptop screen listening to Don't Go and Peter Pan. 

It's funny to think that I couldn't even hold the tears from falling down my face. A wave of fatigue suddenly washed over me when all of the stupid memories surfacing, flooding my mind and it got hazy, my blurry vission told me to let it all out. 

I know it isn't good to let them flash at the back of my eyes, but ones could not stop it from coming because it is too hard. This pain is refusing to leave me. My heart is aching, like someone is kicking my chest, my ribcage and let me drown in the dark. Nobody ever understands. Nobody ever cares, that is why they cheated on me. They lied to me and made me wait. Nobody knows, nobody needs me, nobody ever feels this way. 

Of the feeling being left behind. 

Of the feeling being stabbed in the chest for million of times. 

Of the feelings being cheated on. 

Of the feeling being shoved into the darkness, snatching every bit of happiness inside me as if I don't deserve any. 

It is hurting so bad, It comes crawling under my skin, cutting through every fiber in my body. Exhaustion is all over me now. Tell me how to survive this life? Tell me how to be happy? Tell me.