Progress is hard.

(I think I'm frequenting this place to vent out and . Forgive me if the vibes I'm going to release through this blog is negative. If you're feeling down already, stay away, alright? ^^)

I'm trying to be a better person, I really am. Every day, I try to motivate myself, saying things like the new day won't be the same as yesterday. That this day will be different because it just will be. And every day, I disappoint myself. It seems like every new challenge I come across hinders me from having that one, perfect day where I don't get depressed, and I end up asking myself if I've reached my limit already. I know that the only thing permanent in this world is change, but why is it that I'm not moving forward? Am I not capable of improving? Have I just overestimated myself?

Damn it, this feeling .

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theairibreathe #1 Oct 29, 2015 09:12:48

I feel you. I've been going through something like this myself lately. I'm sorry I don't really have any insightful advice, but things *will*change. Sometimes for the better, even if it doesn't seem that way at first. I've learned that the hard way. It may take a few days, months, even a year to realize it, but it seems like everything that happens, happened for a reason. In a weird way, sometimes it just works out in the end. Hopefully the same happens for you. Keep your head up. Fighting! <3

silentreader97 #2 Oct 29, 2015 04:56:23

I know how you feel ~ I tried to motivate myself to eat healthier and go to the gym but must days I'd end up eating junk food and laying around feeling guilty and annoyed. I don't know if it'll help but I got moving by setting small goals first with maybe a small reward at the end. As I got more confident and started to change I was able to set bigger goals instead of the loose 'tomorrow will be better and I'll be healthier' kind of goal. I think I overestimated what I could do so starting small really helped. I don't know if this will apply to you but I hope it can help in some way or another ^.^

SugarPopFiction #3 Oct 29, 2015 03:44:43

I totally know, since I've been dealing with depression for a few years now. If nothing's changing at the moment, then it can't always be helped. Of course it should be that you're willing to change, but it can also be the environment. OR that the right opportunity to do so hasn't come. It's at your own pace, so handle it in baby steps, I suppose. I've noticed small changed in myself over the years but I'm ultimately still myself. Uhh, so, I mean to support you by saying...that I hope it works out well sometime.