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Also, I'm working on Hide & Seek Part II since I posted the first but being oc and all, i haven't completed it yet. I wish i can tonight but I've got classes tomorrow and work and an event on friday plus exam on saturday as well as interview and work again (whew hectic!) but still, i'll do my best. it is, after all, a fic written during free period or when i needed to take a break from such stressful events. i didn't really think much as i wrote and edited it (which i barely did). It's planned only to have 3 parts. Part II so far is already 7 pages i think and i haven't even reached a quarter of it. why! still, i rather stick to the 3 parts because i dont want to split it up again only for the feels to leave me when i'm almost through with it (like Switched and Y+M=I). 

I honestly thought it'll take me at least until the end of the year before I resume my AFF stuff but unexpectedly, the "hiatus" and deactivating lasted for only 3 weeks. I realised that no matter what, at the end of the day, there's just 2 choices: mope around or move on. the first one is tempting and yeah i stayed in that phase for quite some time but it did me no good. yes i was hurt and from time to time it still stings knowing things will never go back to the way they used to, but it's part of growing up. i guess it's safe to say that the one-shot CRASH provides a gist of it. or whatever. 

now i'm back to spazzing on twitter, writing barf-inducing cringe worthy cheesy stuff...ahh.when will i ever write angst. lol. Poems has become a favorite hub of quotes so dont be surprised if i always credit that. i still have a challenge i've yet to take (with OTP not ending up -> no twists. imma let dools win in that yet to be written story. lol) and more.

i have a lot going on in life and though the people who i wish would always be with me every step of the way made their choice to leave or partially be there but not really there (if you get what i mean), i also made mine. moving on is not easy. heck, if this was boy trouble i guess it would've been less painful rather than having your closest friends take a turn making decisions w/o much consideration to you or your friendship, but that's the past and i'll concentrate on the future. they said i've been doing great and no longer looking miserable and at the back of my mind i'm like duh. i choose to be happy for me bec i deserve it. i still love all of them but not to the extent of what it used to be. i still hope and pray and want only the best for them. but for us to go back....i dont think i'll ever be ready to take a risk again.

ah this has been too long. i should've written an update. whatever. i give up boxing myself to deadlines, etc. i'll write as it goes and not stress. writing after all, has always been a passion and outlet. ^^ that's all.

P.S. thanks  to all those who exchanged pm with me. you all know who you are. you really made me smile amidst the dark times. :')