Sometimes everyone I get close to, in my real life always end up walking away from my life with out a goodbye and I'm tarried of it. 

Recently I lost a friend today, after I got pretty close to the friend. And now like most of my friend he is walking away.. If anything... he was already like a uncle figure to me.. 

Now him and my mom is fighting and I'm sitting here in my room trying to drain out the noise they are making. Its sad and depressing, why does everyone always leave, the ones I let close in my life. Close to knowing the real me. They hit my back and leave like I'm nothing. 

It Hurts.. I feel like i'm just a grian of sand in this life. And people still have a nerve in my real life to ask why I'm depressed, ask why I'm always sad. And than they judge me and tell me that I'm changing when they don't know me that much.. 

And I should just be happy, because atleast I'm not burdened by them.. But I don't want to lose anyone one else. I wish the fighting would stop, maybe at this point they should just break up.. They keep Making up and than fighting and fighting. I don't like the yelling. It keeps me up at night. the good news is that it's 6:21pm and not time to sleep.. 

But I'm just getting tarried of the yelling, of the fighting. I hate it.. I just don't like it. Ever since my parents divorced it seems those always happens for my mom, yelling and yelling. Sometimes its me and sometimes it's other people. 

I just don't like getting close to someone and than they leave like it was nothing. It's upsetting. And I wish it would just stop.. 

Well sorry for my little rant here. I just wanted to let something out. And I can't call my dad, because my mom would hear me. So I put it on here. 

I just don't know how much more I can take.. How much more people leaving my life, before I explode.