Sometimes, when a person has felt and gone through so much pain, they become accustomed to it that the feelings are so numb they no longer understand why their mood is down or what is going wrong in their current situation.

I don't want to say that I understand how you feel or what you are going through because as humans we've come to deal with things differently and what hurts us may not be the same pain to someone else. You're not alone.

It will be hard for to come out and explain your feelings to your husband or to anyone else, especially when you think that they won't care or that they won't understand, but that's why you should reach out and give people the chance to help you and see your point of view instead of letting them guess or letting your stress and depression go by unnoticed.

The saddest people are those who cannot help themselves. So as a person to another who has faced the ups and downs, who fought their own battles and lost some or all, let me be a stepping stone to help you tread against this dangerous river you are trying to cross.

You wrote this post in hopes someone can reach out to you, because you still want to fight your depression and you want defeat it. Right now you may feel weak, perhaps even helpless or useless, but you aren't.

You're married, you have a husband who is devoted to love you, to accept your flaws and pain and be the pillar that you can lean and depend on. Don't let your fear of feeling worthless deter your worth and importance. Remember that you have a family who will always have your back and accept you no matter what circumstances come about. Be strong, the current storm you are facing can be sheltered as long as you welcome yourself into the home of those who have their door open for you. No one is willing to leave the ones they love outside in the cold, all you have to do is knock on that door and so many people will be there waiting for you.

Be strong, everything is going to be okay.

bubbbs, wanna talk, I don't know you but hey I'm all ears for vents