So, *sigh* before you hate me for spamming blogs about contests, I want to do this differently than just "I'm entering blah blah," since for a while I feel like the people that read my work need to know more of the writer behind the screen. 

There's something biting me lately, and I feel like I'm going to burst into glass fragments if I don't share this with SOMEONE. It may not sound so important, but it is to me. 

Taking it back to when I first discovered this site, I was a full-time reader, not caring much about writing anything even though I was my most vulnerable and genuine in it. Telling the blank piece of document my fears, thoughts, imagination, everything. So when I read stories that delivered the same thing over and over to me time and again, instead of dropping comments critizing the writer, I wanted to do my own thing. Write what I wanted and fill the voids that left me empty. I'm not saying they were terrible writers or anything, but I wanted to share my own imagination with others. 

However, I was dumb. My first EXO and Sehun story is titled, "Kiss the Blood off My Hands," I was excited since I had so many plans, so many twists, so much hope and felt like it might be my breakthrough here in this site. 

What was dumb of me?

I let my readers write the story FOR me. 

The praises and compliments were drowned with things like, "um... yeah your story is not that great..." or "your story has so many flaws, I can't take the frustration." 

Okay, I know I should not let them get to me, and I didn't, the problem was without realizing it, I wrote what they wanted me to write, but not what I wanted. And when I brought them something they did want, they still complained. Don't get me wrong...like there was black, there was white. (Beautiful people like Nicolaaahearts, Saera-ah, moonlight12, alexajjang, kadinha - readers I will continue writing for...)

There were those who not only cared for the story, but cared for me too. It felt good, since I did after all, wrote my own feelings. Sometimes I cried writing a chapter (KBOMH) remembering a situation I passed through that was so similar to what I was writing, and the fact some people couldn't appreciate that, hurt. 

I evolved since then, though. Which is where, 'Starve This Sin' and 'Quench this Fire' came in. And even other stories I have planned for you guys who are interested. KBOMH has gone too many circles because I let the negative comments influence it to the point it wasn't what I wanted to write anymore. I will come back to that story in case you were wondering, but not soon. I don't even recognize it anymore and I want to find the way I can restore it. I said I had the story planned out, but after what happened... it's now like a train running without tracks. 

Moving that aside, I also need something that urges me to write (insert reason for writing contests here.) Updating is hard when you're working at the night shift and leave work around midnight or later and have enough time to write in the morning and maintain a life if you know what I am saying. Haha, but regardless, I have some announcements....

I'm putting the Mark from GOT7 story on hold. Right now, I'm going to focus on three things.

1. Finish Starve This Sin
2. Publish the first two chapters of my newest stories. Link below...
3. Complete my Chanyeol and OC one-shot. 

And one of the new stories is for.... yep - a writing contest. (I congratulate you from reading up until here. ♥) 

Moon-Kissed (they got ridiculously legit prizes) is hosting a big- contest and  it's the only way I'll be able to update and finish instead of relying on people's comments. Feel me?

Entering moon-kissed writing contest with :

A Faded Memory

OC and Kyungsoo.

tags | marriage, angst, romance. No

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Starting on "Angel Without Glory"

OC and Sehun 

tags | (of course),  alcohol addiction, angst, romance.

P.S. : If Saera-ah is reading this... I wanna tell her I have a one-shot in mind featuring Baekhyun and I'm planning to use her UN as the name of the OC ;) I need to make it up to her for not updating KBMH and she loves Baekhyun, so I wanna dedicate a Bacon story for her. ♥