Hello, all!

I'm just dropping by to explain why I've been so quiet and otherwise unproductive on AFF but this might be lengthy or maybe it won't, it depends on how things go - also, things will be getting quite heavy towards the end. 

During June of this year I had three weeks of final exams which would end my Secondary school education ((Middle school and High school for those who are American)) and some exams were close to 4 hours long which would be followed up with another 3 hour long exam straight after. So I had taken a break from writing to focus on completing these exams which would dictate whether or not I would get into college or not. 

Then July came and I did manage one or two updates but essentially I was working to save up some money as my results would not arrive until the end of August. During this two month period of limbo I was kept quite busy with work and other personal engagements, and when I could I tried to write and update a few things. Then finally the waiting period ended and I got my results!! I was quite happy with how I did but this was not the end of anything yet - I still had to wait for college offers to come out.

So another two weeks of waiting commenced and finally the results were sent out and I indeed did get my place in college - of course I accepted straight away! I was so utterly excited, albeit nervous, to go and I immediately set into motion about getting things ready, trying to save up my last few weeks of work and the rest. So obviously I was quite busy and didn't have a chance to write.

However, despite everything going well, then came the ultimate downfall. 5 days ago I had my prom which went off without a hitch but the day afterwards I was told by my mother that my father wanted to kick me out of the house. My father and I have had a few rough years due to his abusive behaviour, to which I responded to by refusing to associate and talk to him. Apparently he blew up two days before my prom because 'nobody told him about it' ((the date was set back in January)) and he had decided that I was no longer his daughter and that I didn't belong to the family anymore. This practically shook me to my core and I was absolutely shattered. I had tried to talk to him about it and negotiate for I have never disrespected my home and was told; 'I wish you had done drugs instead of turning out the way you did'. However, I refused to leave my home and eventually my mother managed to save my place at home. 

When I thought things had settled I was ready to begin college and get away from the house for my studies, which were meant to start yesterday morning. But when I got up to get ready I was called into the kitchen by my mother and told that my father wouldn't pay for my college fees, and that I was quite simply not attending. Again, I was left feeling betrayed and absolutely empty. All my hard work and achievements were suddenly taken away yet again by the man who has put me down into depression through my teenage years. 

I am currently trying to place myself in a job and am getting help from my siblings who are working to negotiate college payement with him in the hopes that I may attend before this week is out. So until further notice, I am unable to put aside time to write and updates may take another month or so. I'm sorry to all who have been waiting but currently things are not in my favour and I am struggling to pull things together.

So until I update again,

Thank you.