as someone who's written heavy topics and dealt with difficult emotions through my stories - i know all too well about those feelings with my own personal experiences. my coping mechanism was to write about them, put my emotions onto other (fictional) beings and study them from afar, and that was how i could figure out how to make peace with my struggles.

hearing the news about such an endearing man, a singer who gave us everything and told us everything is just heartbreaking. because i've been in the same desolate place. and scarily recently, i've also been on the receiving side of which his family, shinee members and colleagues are now experiencing. and i can only give them all my best hopes that they will survive and see another day.

a part of me wishes for it to be untrue, that in the morning we will receive a statement that he's well and safe. but reality hurts and sometimes it isn't so simple.

to my readers, if you feel you are struggling, that you're fighting hard but ending up nowhere else but in darkness, please please seek out help and put yourself into an environment that you will be safe in - even if you can't keep yourself safe. please do not struggle alone, please do not bottle up your feelings and continue on without a helping hand. there is always a way out and even in the darkest place, light can still reach you. talk, tell someone,  be insistent about being safe and do what you know is right. 

as a fandom, we all share the same pain but let's protect each other. 

if anyone would like to contact me about how they're feeling after the news, or even after their own emotions - my inbox is certainly always open and my shoulder is always free if you need a friend. please be safe.