1.) Story of my last kiss

- Does kisses on cheek count? If yes, then my gay friend kissed me earlier on the cheek bc it's how we greet each other : " )

2.) One of my obsessions

- Listening to music. I can't leave the house without my earphones, I listen to music anywhere and anytime, yes, even when I'm in class -- well, if the prof's not present yet. I'm a good kid, aye.

3.) What was going on in my life one year ago

-Nothing eventful happened last year, I was too stressed with acads to even notice what was happening around me lmao.

4.) One of my insecurities

- Basically my appearance. I'm too conscious and I'm such a hypocrite for telling people that they are beautiful when I myself don't believe that I am. Then again, it's because I listen too much to what people are saying to me and no matter how much I convince myself that I'm okay the way I am right now, it's just so hard to do so especially when people keep on reminding you that "hey, you have to look like this."

5.) My childhood career choice

- Wanted to be a vet, I still want to actually, but I'm taking up Tourism and not Vet Med orz. If I don't get to be a vet, I'd build my own animal shelter, take in the abandoned pets so that when no one wants to adopt them, I'll take care of them myself instead.

6.) Worst day of my life so far

- When I learned that my dad has a heart ailment, this one's years ago tbh, but I'd say that it's the worst day ever. I was the last one to know about things because my dad didn't want me to worry, little did he know that what he did made me worry even more. This might sound exaggerated, but I did cry myself to sleep back then. I mean, I am an only child (well, supposed to have siblings but they're unborn) and it's just so hard to think of what it woud be like to live alone in the future. 

I don't like the concept of being alone, so yeah.

7.) One thing I'd like to change about myself

- My mindset of starving myself as a way to reduce weight. I know it's not ideal but it helped me you know? It's so hard to stop doing things that you got used to.

8.) One thing I own that has a sentimental value

- My dog plush named "Pachi", he's my first plushie. When I was a kid I won't be able to sleep without Pachi with me. When  we stay the night in someone else's place, I'll cry because I can't sleep. I think it's the reason why I still have lots of plushies until now ; u ;

9.) My favorite childhood toy

- As mentioned above, it's Pachi. Even when he's already ragged and old, I still love him I even asked my mom to patch him up.

10.) Subject that I'm good at

- I'll answer this according to my performance this sem -- Accounting and Geography. I enjoy both classes and yeah, I pay more attention to those subjects rather than the others (even my majors orz).

11.) One of my hobbies

- I've answered this back then but yeah, drawing. I really love anything art related.

12.) One of my bad habits

- Starving myself. I have a story to tell, back in HS, I was big, like really big. I didn't care about what others would think or say until one of them actually told me personally that I am big, I look ugly and that I don't know anything else but to  eat. I was shocked because back then I wasn't aware that society is filled with bunch of s, that if they see something they don't like about you then they'll just slap it across your face and make you feel bad about it. But can you blame me? I was too young for some things.

I was nearly 70 kg when I was in my second year, then that summer I started starving myself. There were days that I wouldn't eat anything (just drink water) for three days straight, then the fourth day I'll eat a piece of bread or a piece of meat then no eating for days again. It was horrible, I argued with my dad back then too, he told me what I was doing won't make things better and that in fact I'm putting my healt at risk, that I am aware of, but I didn't listen, I kept on doing it because I saw the changes, midway in my third year my weight dropped down to 50 kg, I should be happy right? Because that's what I wanted to happen, but no, I felt bad because what I did isn't exactly ideal.

And now, I thought I've learned my lesson. But still no, I still don't eat properly because people and their comments about my appearance are back. It , you know? But in the end, we're all just victims of a society that refuses to accept us for who we are.

13.) The weirdest ual encounter I've had

- What does this question even mean? orz

14.) Where I want to be right now

- Somewhere peaceful, with lots of trees and grass and, oh, maybe a forest? Or maybe somewhere like the beach? Swimming with the fishes would be nice, don't you think?

15.) Who I wish I could be

- A "me" who can accept myself for who I am right now and who I will be in the future.

16.) How old the person I like is

- I'm a plant so idk how to answer this.

17.) Where I would like to live

- Maybe in New Zealand? It's such a lovely country -- even if I haven't been there yet, lmao. 

18.) iest person that comes to my mind immediately

- Zi to the tao.

19.) One fact about me

- My right eyebrow rises on its own bc y y not.

Tell me if you'll be doing this too, okay? <3 I'd love to read yours! : )