Ok... to start this off, i want you guys to know some of the basics about me. 

Name or rather call me Cie, i'm asian (gay. lol jk) who is 20 years of age this coming sept. A 4th yr Education student, yeah a teacher. I live normally, well I dont know what term to use but I or we live average, not poor yet not rich. I can get what ever I want or ask if I work hard for it, so basically im not a spoil brat, obviously i love Kpop i wont be here if i dont. right?

So i will start now why I need some comfort

It all started when I met this one person, who loves kpop we instantly became close and our bond became strong like siblings. she helps me financially and gives me everything. when I vell her to bot to send me money or things and she insisted telling me that she loves what she do and she knows that God will bless her and giving me those makes her happy. so I let her tought I constantly tells her not to.

when I happened to be on a relationship (for about a year) she became naggy and she yearns for attention which is I always always give her. until we started to fight as a person that is a short fused that i am, I easily get angry because she will going to look for something simple and make it big. then a month ago she threathens me that she will kill herself and telling that she loves me (like a sister, which I appreciated, but still) and she'll be sent to the hospital because she is anemic and faints like crazy when Im mad at her.

then today, i got mad at her, i didn't answered any of her calls and messages and even from her co-teachers. and to he fact that im actually busy at my On the job traing (Ojt) and I have to go to my school to study and Im (suddenly became a part of) the choir so basically I was BUSY the whole day that I forgot to check on her.

When I was going home, I called her and said that I will be going home and I sorry, she was ok with it.

then I recieved messages from one of her co-teacher saying that I was just using Mi (my friend) for her money, like im a social climber or something or a user (not a drung user) and told me that I dont respect teacher and I should not become a teacher. and not to call nor talk t mi ever again.

maybe Im not a competent teacher or maybe just maybe not an affective teacher but even so I always have RESPECT TEACHERS. 

Now while Im writting this my tears cant stop flowing from my eyes because it hurted me. and made me feel guilty wishing that I should have never been too friendly and now it feels like I dont want to be friendly. again.

and I know its long and it doesn't make any sense. sorry for taking your precious time.