So I have this crush on a certain someone and I've been inlove to him for almost half of my life, lets just say since I was 6 yrs old and I am now 21... stupid right?

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I was SIX YEARS OLD when I felt this feeling, called crush. First I thought what is this stupd feeling, because heck what does a 6 yr old know about this right?  I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA WHAT THIS IS! So I decided to observe what that feeling is.

The following days I have a slight idea what that feeling was specially what I saw on the TV when I was a kid, it was a romantic movie then I asked the adults what was love and of course they explained it to me and now I know what that feeling was called. IT WAS INFATUATION... or if that was I think of it.

This kid was really cute, smart and kind. Then the young me was a boyish but quiet and timid girl and there was girls who are prettier and girlier than me, so I was sadden because I know he wouldn't like a girl manlier than him.

There was this time in our art class when our teacher asked us to make landscapes using clay, and hell yeah! Art is my forte! so I told my momto buy me some clay and imma gonna make some art, and for me it was the best thing ever! Because I myself made it. then morning came and it was art class then I saw his landscape and it was way better than mine, and it sadden me. Also the teacher picked his as the best and I am only second best :(

We were seperated by class when we were on 2nd grade (well I am (and him) kinda advanced so yeah teehee) he went to the 1st class and I was on 2nd class. But it never failed me to catch a glimpse or two to him. Then we graduated on Elementary and he is still my crush.

HIGH SCHOOL

I was enrolled by mom to the school which formerly attended by my older siblings and also the fact that the school was actually near our home that is why she decided to enroll me there.

It was basically the first day of my FIRST YEAR High School life and I was so excited/ not excited because I dont want to minggle with other stupid students, but what can I do right? Its not like I am too smart for them, I am average but I dont like them.... Anyways....

I was looking for my classroom when I bumped into someone tall and thin XD then I saw that it was him! My Elementary crush! HE IS ALSO ATTENDING THE SAME SCHOOL AS I AM!!! HOLY BUTTERED FISH FILLET! THIS IS NOT REAL! MENTAL BREAKDOWN and the usual he asked me if I am ok and I only nodded my head because deym he is really pretty *cough*

I asked him if he is in the same class that Im in and he said nope (AND THAT IS OUR VERY FIRST FORMAL TALK!) (yeah for almost 6 yrs in elem I didn't gave him anys, im too fabulous for him XD) the fact that we are not in the same class made me sad (aww... this fabby is sad again XD) but we became friends. WE BECAME FRIENDS. WE.BE.CAME.FRIENDS. 

Then our SECOND YEAR we became classmates (praise the lord!) we also became seatmates! MATES I MEAN SEATMATES I TELL YOU!!!! We became friends with everybody on our class like stupid brothers and sisters our bond was priceless.

Since  we became classmate on the 2nd year until we graduated and We are really close. We even visit each others (our friends) houses (but mostly mine and his because he leives near us) (and also because I have strict parents and doesn't allow me to go out too often).

NOW that we are college students we still have a lot of bondings and things. Also until not I still have a crush on him. no I AM TOTALLY INLOVE WITH THIS GUY. We even give gifts to each other (only the two of us XD) and have these little friendly dates.

The two of us are so close that everybody thinks that we are a COUPLE! (and I would really wish we were) there was a time that he asked me for his bday gift and I forgot about his gift so I told him to meet me on the mall so we can buy a gift for him.

We are at the department store Mens section that is, and I told him to pick a shirt that he would like and He picked like 3 tees and asked me to pick and I also took 3 because I liked the designs. It took us an hour to pick a shirt and the sales (man and woman) were giggling on us telling me that we looked really cute together and also asking if he was my boyfriend or somesort and I told them we are some sort but we are only friends (ladies and gents you dont know how much I wished that we are a couple!)

Then I asked him if ever he would buy me a gift, buy me some mens tees Large (though I am on medium or small XD... its comfy) and he said sure "why not, your not a complicated girl anyways" he smile and told me to pay for the tees.

Then I paid for the tees and we went out to eat (his treat) and It was the one of the happiest day of my life.

We tell some of our secrets then I felt that I was been poured by icy bucket of water when he asked me (thur chat) what should he give to a girl. Of course I smile ever so widely because damn!

But then... It wasn't for me it was for the girl he likes for months now and his been courting her for 5 months! It was so painful but I still need to help him coz he doesn't even know that I LOVED HIM.  I asked what is she like and as time goes on I realized that he would never want a girl like me... boyish and all... But I know I am pretty, many said that I am a head turner and I am not average (they told me that ok xD) but still the way I dress isn't like the other beautiful girls. I wear comfortable clothes that covers all of my skin. I will never wear skirts or dresses in public and if I do only with my family. 

Anyways now they are a couple for almost 6 months and they are happy and here I am telling you guys this though I know no one cares XD 

and YES until now I still love that guy. My bestfriends told me that its ok to wait for him if you really love him right?

But the question is.... UNTIL WHEN?

I really loved him I thought it was just a simple imfatuation or puppy love tbut I never knew that this will bloom like this.

This is my story of my one sided love.

-Sheeppy

p.s: I really want to make a story out of this but I cant I have no idea how XD