I was just going to add this as an authors note at the end of one of my Leaving Delirium chapters but it ended up being longer than I thoght it would so.

I just wanted to share with the readers of this fic the reason why I decided to write it AFTER Tao left Exo.

I always used to say that 'I don't ship real people' and I still stand by that because despite how much I love my ships (babies) I, without trying to justify exploiting the names of and personalities of these people for our fantasies, don't really ship them as people. I mean if Tao and Sehun had come out as being in a relationship together I would have been 1000% happy for them because love is beautiful.
What I'm saying is despite the 'reality' shows idols go on there's always parts of them they won't show the public, they have images to keep up and companies even give tell them sometimes what personalities they should have on stage (the case of Jongin vs. Kai for example) I ship the images and personalities either the idol or their company wants them to play and I do not demand for them to always be that nor do I think they should be that way in their personal lives.
If Tao and Sehun want to hold hands and play on stage, hell yeah that's fanservice, good stuff 👍 and I SHIP that. Who ever they were to each other in their personal lives is none of my business nor do I really care.
On the other hand I can not deny that the reason why I ship Taohun so hard was because of how real it felt. Tao and Sehun did honestly seem really close to each other which is why (even though I support Tao's decisions) I was really bummed when he left. The same with Kris and Luhan, Tao seemed to be very close to them too. Tao showed us parts of the personal him in regards to his feelings about Kris and Luhan (unless crying is the image he wanted to have which if it was damn is he a swell actor he should star in all the dramas) and I want to believe he put that feeling of loss into the lyrics of his song 'One Heart' "as long as you stay with me"
I tried to convey the realness and depth of those feelings through the Tao in this fic and that's probably why this has been my favorite Taohun relationship that I've ever writen.

Yeah sorry if this didn't make any sense or if I contrdicted myself at all. You can go about your day now.