I'm sure I mentioned in my personal rants about my life that I have CPS custody of my two cousins since last December. When they first came, they were 6 months and 6 years old, now theyre 7 years and 13 months. 

The youngest, the 13 month old.... I use to get really annoyed because I don't really like kids or babies and since he came: he started off on no schedule, had his nights and days mixed up, he couldnt even crawl.

Now, after 7 months with countless nights of no sleep we finally have him on a schedule, he is eating chunky food, started crawling and began walking over here, saying his first few words, learning new things....... and now is calling me "Ma" 

After being with him for such a long time, I've grown accustomed to the little booger. His messy eating, his boogery face, his tempertantrums, his big appetite, his hippo open mouth kisses, his hugs, his giggles.

I feel like I have a son now.

I dont know, I feel like I am a mom now and he is my son. I've grown attached.

I use to be the person who would avoid babies and avoid holding them, and now I give off that motherly vibe and babies radiate towards me no matter where I go.

I dont know how to feel about it.