Hey guys...

There is this girl, she was my very good friend, I dare to say, and we stopped talking. It's been a few months already, and I still feel bad because I really reaaally liked her as a friend, and I enjoyed talking to her, and I DO miss her every day..... aaand I realize I was the one who stopped talking to her.

I don't even know why. I did this once (I know I'm a horrible person), because our conversations were always only long messages because of big time zones and we had so much to talk about and even though I know I enjoyed talking to her, I always got lazy to reply, because, lol, when you look at the message she'd send you, you'd become lazy too. :D At that time I didn't reply for a month, then I wrote her a message full of apologies and everything, and she said it's okay, like totally, she seemed okay with it, and I was glad we continued talking to each other.

BUT THEN AGAIN, I DON'T KNOW WHY, I DID IT AGAIN. And the longer it was, the longer it felt weird for me to write her again. But it's been two weeks I guess when I just want to write her so badly and apologize for everything and for not writing and beg her to be my friend again but... I don't even know anymore. There is so much I want to fangirl with her about, to tell her about, and I feel so bad for not talking to her during Infinite's comeback and troubles EXO had, and just everything in general.

Although this is all nice and stuff, we DIDN'T have that kind of a friendship where it could be felt we were good friends. I felt like we were two girls who talked to each other and kinda enjoyed it, but I can't know if she misses me too or if she thinks about me at all.

I feel just bad about this. I want to be a better friend. I'd love to undo it if I could... sadly, I can't.

What should I do...?