Dear College Kids.

Hey college kids (more geared towards upperclassmen college kids),

I was wondering if anyone has ever felt depressed because of college?

Like,

"I wish I studied harder for this class" or "Because I ed up, this should have been my graduating year."

Those two are flooding my mind right now, but the biggest one is "How come I am doing this for my mom and no longer for me?"

My mom use to tell me "Its your choice. You go to school or get a job"

I chose school because it was something I wanted to badly considering my bad high school experience and grades... and then decided to tell her I wanted out recently and she said "No, go to school".

It feels like it's no longer my choice to go to school anymore; its no longer my ambition, it's her wanting me to go to show off to the family, it's HER ambition that is being fueled.

I don't want my education to be paraded around the family, I want it to be a choice that I made and not being told 'You only went cuz your mom made you' because at this moment, that is what is gonna happen.

Even my brother said the same thing when he dropped out of college 'I felt like I was doing this for everyone else but myself'

And it's not like its some BIG thing in my family to go to school. If I do graduate, I'll be the first one to graduate. I mean, I guess that is huge but its not..

What should I do? I wanna continue to go to school and get my degree. How do I get myself back into that motivational state I was in when I first started??

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Redisfierce #1 Jul 11, 2015 18:23:06

Why do you want to continue school?
Is school important to you or are are you just going just to go?
How do you feel about being student? happy, depressed, lucky, productive?
What is your major?
how is you college education going to help you?
Forget your mom when you answer this questions.
Family are important(believe me, they are everywhere i go), but this is your life, they could praise you and shower you with compliments but those are momentarily, what matters is how you feel and want, not them, this is your life.

Heme-san #2 Jul 8, 2015 13:35:25

When you go into collage you go into a major you interested in. Try and bring back the things you love about that major the things you saw yourself doing with that major. I know it 'shard to do. School the fun out of your interest because they stick a grade on it so it become more work then fun but try to remember what you like about you major.

maplemalfoy #3 Jul 8, 2015 12:09:27

i think you should change your mind.. i mean make a plan that you will graduate in flying colours.. make a plan for your next step, i mean like a job in the future. what kind of job that can related to your degree.. do something or take a course that will improve your skills,, be different from the others... so, it's your choice than... take a risk or turn away.. live is never flat~ good luck..

WarriorBABYz #4 Jul 8, 2015 07:23:58

I'd like to give you advice but I'm a first yr... I'm studying visual art but in high school I almost went into engineering for my parents so ik the pressure... even now I'm constantly asked about my plans...
anyway! I guess you could think about why you initially wanted to study what you're studying? like if you have a diary recording why reread it... think what your goals were...etcetc or you could always transfer courses/change majors/find an alternative in or out of the field...