Just before EXO debuted, I had severe depression (I’d had it for 2 years) and suffered hallucinations – anything I was afraid of, my mind projected to the real word. I contemplated suicide as a result. I thought about suicide a lot, especially when people told me that if I was going to mope around all the time I might as well have just killed myself. EXO saved me.

One day, when I was feeling particularly depressed, I grabbed a kitchen knife and held it against my wrist. Then I saw them. I saw EXO – not the real them, just hallucinations. Luhan came and took the knife away from me. They said I’d be alright as long as I waited for them. So I did and I was. I still got depressed sometimes, but then I saw them as hallucinations and it wasn’t so bad anymore.

I can’t do that anymore. It doesn’t work because people keep leaving. I still see them sometimes, but I never see them all together anymore like I used to. I don’t have a coping method anymore. But whatever happens, I’ll still support them all.

I want to thank EXO for unintentionally and unknowingly saving my life, and I want to thank my best friend for introducing me to them. I also want other people who have suffered/are suffering/will suffer from depression that even though it might be hard sometimes, there’s always a better option than suicide.

P.S. Sorry for the long post. I know a lot of you probably didn’t read it, but that’s alright.