You know, I have this crush since I'm in second year. I've always liked him for 3 years.

I just don't know if this is love or some kind of feeling which make you puke in feels just because he congratulated you because you've won champion in chess game. Yeah, that instantly made my heart leap. because that's the FIRST time I had interaction with him. Though he always caught me when I'm looking at him, and that always shoot me with hearts. like omo, senpai noticed me, oh . but he saw me looking at him!!

You know, I don't know if this is love or just infatuation. I never talked to him because he's in different year but I know I've always liked him. I get jealous because my best friend had talked to him many times, and guess what? I NEVER TALKED TO HIM< EVEN BY CHANCE and IT REALLY KILLS ME HUHUHUH. he has a girl friend but still, I like him. That's for 3 years now. Though he already knows that I liked him so I always get nervous when he sees me. 

I also asked my best friend if this is love or what, but.... she didn't know either. Maybe she couldn't tell me the answer because she had never seen me with him so HOW IN HELL COULD I LOVE HIM, RIGHT? Or are the movies and fanfics true? That someone could fall in love even though he never talked to him and just liked him from afar? 

I really want to know so could you tell me something? Haha, that would really help me relieve my feelings.