2008, when the flower of youth finally bloom.

This thing called Facebook got us into it, we changed from Yahoo! Messenger to Facebook. Well, we are friends so there is probably no secret. He told me that he likes this Chinese girl in his class and since it is almost the last day of Middle School, he wanted to invite her to the dance with him. I gave him some advice and he said he wanted to confess to her. I was taken back… I thought it does make sense that he likes other girls.. I’m not the only one anyway. So, few days later, he told me his friend spoiled the confession and everyone ended up knowing that he likes her. Well, I comfort him and from there he moved on.

“Hey, give me your house address, we are coming down there this Sunday” “Really?!” First time after a year, we see each other again. Forgot to mention before, he was shorter than me and a bit chubby… Sorry friend. He did come that Sunday, apparently he appeared to be so much taller and skinnier. Because we never played with each other and just chat online, I got bit flustered of how to talk to him. However, it was good to see the kid who were once a jerk to me came to visit my family. Talk about the parents, they are friends indeed, they talk to each other the whole time…

Of course that was the only time he came, it was 8th grade year? Yeah! So we still talk to each other and one day it became something I’m scare of. My friend from Vietnam posted a funny comment “Have you tell her yet?!” “Not yet” I put in my own comment “Hey, I want to know too. Is it another girl this time? Who is it? Tell me” “Hey, he didn’t tell you anything?! Really?! "What does he have to tell me? Hey…?” “We changed to a private chat.. "Your sister didn’t tell you?” “She didn’t tell me anything… Why?” “Wait, I’ll call you.” Why all of sudden he wants to call me? “Hey, I came to tell you something” My sister walked in.. “He said he has a girl he likes…” “That kid, why don’t he tell me he has someone he likes? Jeez it is not the first time” “He likes you…” After that the phone rings, the number was his… “Hey…” “Oh… My sister told me…” “Then… What do you think…?” I was so scare but luckily the phones disconnected… “What should I do?”

I didn’t talk to him and didn’t give him a proper answer. Simply, I don’t know what is like to like someone as a partner. I never fully understand it, I’m a teenager yet I only revolve myself around my family. I was taken back, I think when I don’t know what is like to like someone, it is cruel to date someone who is your best friend and ask them to wait for you to find out. I told him on Facebook, “Do you think other girls are still better than me? It is best if you can find one. However, friend still?” I rejected him just like that, so scare that I would lose this friendship and all. “Ok”