If I could bring the one who destroyed your life in front of you, 

and guarranteed you that you'd get away with it,

would you kill that person?

 

I push myself to the limit and let go of

You - the one who kept promises of love

Beautifully lying, that is indeed your new art,

Words that started a storm in my heart.

 

As questions flood my mind, I lay down on my bed, trying to go to sleep without crying. The temptation to let the tears fall is too big though, almost releaving. Painful thoughts nibble at the corner of my eyes, getting the best of me. The regret that you might be struggling with the same salty droplets clutches at my heart for a second, but reality hits me even harder. You're so far away...

 

Torn to pieces, faintly trying to get out,

In torturous dispair I continuously shout

Searching for any love left in your eyes

I see their coldness and the hope eventually dies

Innocent - that part of me is long gone

I've gone insane, that's what you'e done

 

...to me.

 

  So, in this late hour...I'm telling you: "You can hunt my past, ruin my future...but stop messing up my present. Pull me out of this misery, what have I done to you? My fragile heart feels ready to blow, looking for an answer to this entire mess. I can't take it anymore, it's been too many years. I'll drop to my knees in front of you if that's what it takes for you to say that in the morning when I wake up, it will all be gone. And next time when I see you, I will simply enjoy hugging you with no problems. Promise me...It will be like old good times, when we were young and carefree. " I hope you could hear this, cause the only thing I want is to finally wake up one day...and not to feel that heavy heart beating in my chest so weak, yet so strong with a certain deeper meaning. 

 

 

But as broken as it is, my weakned heart still doesn't stop beating

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

for you...

 

I love you.