Annyeong

Everyone tells you to tell your parents what's wrong, what you feel and etc.

For me i been keeping everything from my parents.

Today i told my mom how i feel because they keep suggesting college course for me even if i dont know if i will pass it or what so ever.

She never understands me, NO, She doesn't understand me.

Even if i told her that im suffocating because of all the pressure that they are giving me.

She thought that i don't need there help or what.

I just want her to be proud of me.

I just want her to say to everybody "That's my daughter"

I just want to know that i mean something to her.

BUT

She doesn't understand's me.

For once i want to do it my way.

For once i want to know how it feels to choose your path.

I want to choose my path.

I want to make my future.

BUT

She doesn't understand's me.

I want to get an award for her to say "That's my daughter"

I want to graduate so she can say "That's my daughter"

ALL I WANT IS FOR ME TO KNOW THAT I MEAN SOMETHING TO HER.

Because right now i feel .

I feel useless.

I feel worthless.

I always think if i dei now, no one will ever give a .

I don't know that.

For years i been looking for love (A sister type of love) for stranger's that became my Unnie's.

They supported me and they care for me.

I felt love that i never felt from my own mother.

I felt i mean something to them.

I always feel not worth dying for because i been bullied by my whole class and i have no one to go to.

I don't know anything about me at all.

I don't know if i can sing or not.

Well i have to deal with my life.