Ugh

Little rant, if you don't care pls do move on

There's just so much going on in my life right now that I'm so amazed that I can stand this long without breaking down. Even as I type these words, not a single tear has been shed. People around me, family, friends, people I'm close with are dying left and right. Or getting sick. My father knocked up some woman and got her pregnant. I have a baby brother. My mom is unemployed and we have to sell our house. We might have to get rid of my dog, my only source of happiness. The only thing that keeps what's left of my broken family together. I might have to get rid of that and I can't even begin to think about the pain of having to let my dog go. I have so many ing exams that I've lost track of how many I have to take. But I don't feel anything. I don't actually feel sad or mad or stressed. I don't even feel happy. This makes me think: am I a sociopath? have I felt so strongly for so long that I can no longer feel? This has been going on for months and I still don't understand what's going on.

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xcutecheaks #1 May 10, 2015 22:00:54

Amy,
I apologize for the super late response, since I hardly ever log on here anymore. ;;
you have been through so so much, and I want to let you know that I admire you for staying so strong despite all that has happened.
It has been quite some time, but never forget that I am here for you!
jeonglee 4ever /shot.

showers you with lots of love and care, always. ♡

barooya #2 Apr 27, 2015 04:33:16

http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/935522

I'm not sure if you're in the mood to read, but hey, why don't you try? This is not my story, I like it because of the messages delivered, I thought of sharing this with you.

I would love to pat you or hug you tightly, to tell you on how amazing you are for having to go through all this. Be strong, dear.

God will never test us with obstacles that we can't or unable to pass, because He knows us the best. I'm sorry that you might lose you happiness key, but then, isn't world was created for humans to cherish and benefit to the fullest? Every cloud has a silver lining.

No matter how hard or sad you're feeling, remember that there are more people whose days are even worse than yours. You should always remember how lucky you are, compared to other people. There might be teens at your age living in the streets, with no daily meals. You even have your internet connection.

Try listening to songs when you're down, it's not a fault to indulge yourself with your favourite idols' voice, if that is one way to cheer yourself. You are lucky enough my dear. Be strong.

I hope everything will eventually turn out well in the end, have faith. ♥