Sorry guys it's been 2 months... 

I feel like I am going through a tough time 

I might look like I'll be normal and alright  but in the inside, I feel nervous & self conscious.

I have this new Kpop friend she's panual, I'm not saying that that I like her, I'm saying I admire her. She's so brave. She can express her opinions and uality so well. I love my new friend as my friend. She's so nice and she understands me. 

I need to come out to her. I haven't come out to my crush yet, I am still falling and breaking a lot of bones as I fall. I just feel really tense and just stressed. I want to tell people I am gay... It just won't out. I need to tell my new friend in person. 

When she gives me my present and big card, I will tell her. I ask advice and hopefully I will be helped out... 

Peace out and have a gay day<3