Nowadays, many people especially those who have life problems attempt to commits a suicide and sometimes they don't, they prisoned the 'suicide' inside their minds. They have thoughts about killing themselve and decided to meet the god in person without waiting for their real deaths. 

I can't say it's an intelligent thing to do nor a stupid thing to do. Suicide is undescribable to me actually. Let me tell you my opinion about it, I once have the suicidal thoughts inside my mind and they still inside it right now but I'm controlling it very well. We all did the same did we.  

"Suicide is stupid? Let me tell you what is a lot more stupid, hurting people so emotionally untill they think suicide is the only answer." - Macklemore

That is what Macklemore said after the death of Robin Williams. (I think.) His words is true though. But I don't want to agree with him because to me suicide is kind of idiotic. It is. Really. It is. You cut yourself because you want to feel more alive, and you some kind of want to end the pain. Tell you what, mate. You can't end the pain with PAIN. You're not just emotionally hurt but you make your arms look like a hideous Freddy Kruger face. (The monster from Night at the Elmore Street.) And to compare your scars and his face. I think his creepy grins is lot more beautiful than your scars, my dear. 

You're not the only one who stuck with pain inside your chest and you feel like you want to rip off all the things inside. I was once feeling that way when I feel like the whole world is a huge madness around me and I always argue with my mum, when she always said I'm stupid and always stuck with the computer surfing the internet about nothing but s. Well, ignore that wicked woman, she knows nothing about what I do and what I want to be once I grow up but in my religion, I have to respect everything about she says. But what she said is wrong and god make me a person who always stands up for their own opinion. And do you know how I feel when she says that publishing a book is bull? I really want to kill her in her sleep like really and strangle her to her ing death. But she did that for love (even though she said she did that for love while I know it's just words and a fake sad face. And I don't know if she really did that for love. I just don't know.) But I attempt to commit a suicide that night. 

What I'm suggesting is that, there are ways. Million ways and use your mind to figure out the way or maybe make your own because nobody will save your but yourself not even your parents.

And you know what? I'm trying to find my escape too...