Thanks and farewell.

Hello everyone. 

I would like to thank you for being awesome,  for being there,  supporting me once or more , for simply putting up with me. 
This is not farewell as a reader but as a..  failed writer?  
 
I know i recently made a similar blog however,  this time im not taking a break and coming back. 
This time im stopping for good. 
 
Go ahead,  call me weak!  I got that once. 
However,  you cant really judge me if you never knew what it felt like. 
Said is easier than done. 
It's alot more easier saying im weak and i should improve and fight myself. 
The question lingers..  how?  
 
There's a huge difference between a fic you read and say " waah!!  It definitely could pass as a book " 
And a fic you read and think " mmm a good fanfiction " 
I basically fit in the second category not to mention the pretty much normal rank in it. 
 
I wouldn't say i didn't develop a sort of passion for writing because i did. 
However i realize That's not enough. 
Especially when there's something missing. 
Somethings don't just come with practice. 
Like singing for example,  no matter how much you practice,  if your voice there's no way it can miraculously turn angelic no matter how painfully hard you practice  .
Another example.. drawing. 
There's always gonna be a limit to how far you can go if you are not originally gifted!  
This is where this theory  comes in handy. 
 
I was being delusional fooling myself that behind those struggles I could finally unleash the writer in me but im terribly wrong. 
 
Now There's two routes for me to take.  
To stay delusional and continue updating crappy chapters of crappy stories Or to finally accept it. 
I decided to choose the second. 
 
Im not gonna say im sorry my readers.. because im not .
Actually i'm doing you guys a favor.
 
Plus.. I lost readers who used to frequently comment,  proving me right. 
 
Thanks my friends and readers here. 
If There's something im sorry about.. im sorry for disappointing you. 

 

However,  There's not much i can do about it. 
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sophomoric #1
Honestly, I think failed writers are the ones who quit. If you're passionate about writing, then go write. Does anyone actually care if you're not good enough besides you? Every single writer has this idea lodged in their heads that their writing isn't good enough and will never be good enough. And it's okay, as long as you don't let such a thing hinder you from forging ahead with your writing. Let go of that self-condemnation thing you got going on.

So what if you lost readers; many people have. That proves absolutely nothing.

And you're wrong about drawing and singing. You can get very far with practice and additional knowledge. Maybe you should rethink that part. And have you ever heard of Picasso? Did you know that before he painted all the things he's now famous for, he painted things people at the time called "amazing"? He could draw realistically and was as good as any other painter. But then he began to paint in the now famous cubism style and it wasn't close to perfect because he realized it was a lot more fun that way. He drew like a child because children aren't focused on the details of their subjects or of how good they are and they don't compare themselves to other children; they draw for the hell of it.

What I'm trying to say is, being passionate about writing is a good enough reason to continue writing. Maybe you won't be posting anymore fan fictions, but I would still hope that you write nonetheless.
Hyunah_aaS_4Nia_aa #2
aww ~ i'm listenin to a sad song and reading this and honestly
Totomatoes #3
That's okay noona! You'll find a clearer path for you to take. However, you should know that if there's anyone you should care about being disappointed is not US. But YOU.

The greatest obstacle will be yourself. Stay strong, stay happy! I know it's not as long as the other comments, but my support is as great as them! Good luck noona~!!
Rinininette #4
OMG. I'm feeling so guilty T_T
I... I know you don't want me to be sorry but I feel shame disappearing...
You are not a failed writer, that's not what I think >< and it's not because your my unnie that I say that!
But it's YOUR decision, and I respect it, you're right, some limits can't be reached but it doesn't mean you
I congratulate you because at least you tried, maybe you'll find a new way to write in the future, maybe these fics will only be memories
You're not weak unnie~ah, you're wise.
I'm a little sad knowing that I won't read new chapters from you, but well, I have to get used to it
Bye bye author-unnie :)
Love~♥
FluffKin #5
awh~ dont~!! Im you reader as well just that I need to find the right time to read your story cause your story is full of emotions~ and sometime the emotion follow me everywhere~ please dont go
IHaveRuinedMyLife #6
awww unnie >.<
I think I need to apologize. I know that I'm one of the readers who stopped writing comments on your fanfic... BUT thats not because of your bad writing or something. Definitely not!! Because you're an awesome writer!!!
I just took a break from reading because lately I needed happy and cheerfull fanfics... since there was a lot of drama in real life. But of course I planned to read your fanfic as soon as it is completed.

About the two types of fanfics: You might be right. I admit that. Nonetheless I fit the "oh, good fanfic"-category as well. And I know how frustrating it is. But isn't that a reason to try even harder? Your stories are really really really great! (Always remind yourself that there's also a "wth did I just read"-category!! So writing a "Good fanfic" isn't the end!) You can see that ther're indeed readers, people supporting your work. Doesn't it mean that it isn't THAT bad at all? I always say: as long as you get at least one comment for each chapter it's good. xD And I'm pretty sure that there's NO ONE on Asianfanfics who is actually tired of ANY fanfic! xD
In the end I can only say thanks for the stories you wrote. You know best what to do now... hopefully.
Still I wish you'd overthink your decision.

Hope we will stay friends~ ^-^ FIGHTING~ <3
ren16zaizen #7
You know the best for yourself! I hope we still can be friend ^_^
Seokflake #8
Keep in touch! I know we haven't talked in a while but we could starr again. It's your choice here and none of us can make you change your mind. You do what makes you happy.
kpopmichelle #9
Well I've tried to convince u as much as I can unnie but it looks like it didn't work..... I'm really gonna miss your updates a lot T^T
--pockyy #10
Aww ; v ; it's sad you're going to leave.

I know we don't know each other that well, but you're still a friend to me <3

I will miss chu and may we keep in contact pls? >u<
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