heyo everyone...!!!! :D how is your day??? I hope everyone are doing fine...

 it's been a long time since last time i updated this story...

but today, it's noit an update, it's my last notice...

 I need to inform all of you my subscribers and friends in AFF, that I'll quit AFF..

 honestly, it's really hard for me to do this.. 

 i know it's going to sound offensive, but i need to tell this.. i need to explain the reason why i quit something that always make my day everyday, writing n reading fanfiction about my lovely chenchen...

I'm so addicted with boyxboy story it's not funny anymore...

the moment i woke up, i'll open my phone and search for some boyxboy fanfiction or manga... when i daze off, i will playing some scenario in my mind about luchen's angsty love or just some fluffy love story about chenchen paired with another exo member.. even in work, i started to pair my male co-workers with each other.. I'm an open and ignorant girl..

i even told my friends about my stories, the reactions were various.. But I always told them strictly that I didn't care what they say, I'll continue doing things that I like...

but today, i went to church, amd i'm not ashamed to say that i got some enlightenment.... :,)

you may laught at me, you can judge me whatever you want, but i was crying like a baby there.. i realized i've done so many bad things...

first, i whorship chenchen too much.. i think of him too often, i cried because of him, i love him too much..

i am an ignorant girl, yet i did so much for him...

i think of him more often than i think of my mother, my father, my friends, and my siblings..

my friends said that it seemed like Chenchen is my god..

at that time, i laughed it off, i was proud even!!!

but this morning, i cried...

i have built a comfy world, my comfort zone, and slowly drifted out of my real life...

now that i think of it, it's scary....

i won't tell you about what is right and what is wrong, because i don't have any right to do so,. 

so, i've decided!!!!

I will quit boyxboy world!!!

I'll try to love chenchen not as hard as before...

i'll show my love for him in a new different way...

he's always smile so bright like a sunshine.. i can do that..

he's a caring person, i can try to be a little more caring towards my family and friends, i can do that..

he's hardworking and pasionate to reach his dreams, i'll try to work harder to make my dreams come true..

he remember his god (there's a fancam where chenchen prayed before went to sing on stage), i'll do that..

chenchen once said that a girl should love herself the way she is, i'll do that...

i hope everyone can understand my decision...

I'll post this last notice and wait until tomorrow to deactivate my account...

I'm sorry for all of you who love my crappy stories, I can't continue them...

Thank you for putting up with me till now..

Thank you so much... <3 <3