not long ago, i stalked my requesters. a random thing to do, huh? ._. i was bored at that time.
i got the time to rant tonight, so this is it.
[warning: error grammars]

when they use my posters, i get happy. when they credit me, i get happier. when they compliment me, i feel very happy.
when they don't use it at all, i get sad. they did say 'thank you' before, but i get a bit sad too.

what's the point if you filled the request form that requires time?
or, what's the point if i made a poster for you since you were finding someone to make a poster for you but in the end you don't use it?
even more, what's the point of requesting if you don't even use the poster?
i used my time, sometimes my sleep time for your request, but it ended as nothing.

i get sad over that simple thing tbh. it's like; are my posters unacceptable? or are they not enough for you? (maybe it is..)
i do accept feedbacks, advices, critics, etc. so instead of not going to use it, please let me know if they're unpresentable?
that would make me understand, even though it kinda hurts? i do accept your comments so dear requesters, please let me know ><
i also accept re-dos, so let's talk over it instead of not using it?

i always get happy when someone requests to me. it makes me think that woah, someone actually likes my artwork!
after i made it, he/she will thank me and say that it's great, good, etc.
but bam! he/she don't use it.
can you hear my kokoro breaking apart? T_T

it's fine if you forgot to credit me (since i'll remind you to do so xD)
it's fine if you don't say a thank you (i feel sad but it's okay..)
it's fine if you don't compliment at all (because yeahhh i don't think my artworks are great enough? ._.)
everything's totally fine, as long as you use the poster you requested at me (and you don't claim it as yourself);;

i can't hate you guys (my requesters) who don't use my posters since you're one the reason how i can improve;;

i'm a 13 years old girl that really has a not-scheduled schedule (busy and messy schedule><)
i get scolded for using laptop too long, for using my laptop longer than i study (my grades are okay though ;-;), for not using my free time to exercise..
so i would appreciate a lot if you use my poster after requesting :)

that's all! i hope you understand ^^
to my new requesters, please do understand my current state haha /shot
i only want you to use my poster after requesting, that's all :)

i can't be harsh otl i should be harsher, don't i? T_T i should be stricter too in the future