Written for the someone who has changed my life in so many ways.  

(You might know her better from some earlier blog posts... this one really... this one was sort of about her too) 

In February 

In February, you left me behind.  

You left me with nothing

Except a little message on my birthday, 

Telling me to keep my head up and smile.  

I smiled and had fun,

Because I thought you were coming back. 

In March, you disappeared.  

You slowly faded away,

So I didn't notice.  

Without even a goodbye, 

I didn't realize, 

Because I was used to be alone.  

In April, you were gone.  

You looked back once, 

To tell me that we'll speak again.  

With that little message, 

I believed you,

Because I trusted you.  

In May, I sang you a song,

I wanted you to hear,

I wrote the lyrics for you,

I made the music from your words, 

I sang the song for you,

Because I wanted you to hear. 

In June, you said, 

"We'll speak again.

"But not today,

"I'm busy." 

I nodded and smiled, saying,

"It's okay, I'll wait,

"Because I want to be by your side."

In July, you broke my heart.  

You told me you were angry,

You told me that you no longer wanted me.

I didn't know what to do.  

I wanted to cry, I did cry,

Because you broke my heart. 

In August, I spoke to you again.

It was only a few words,

It was barely a dozen words.

Bitter words were something that I didn't want to say,

But I said them anyways.  

Because I missed you.  

In September, you and I

were in different places.  

Maybe you didn't think of me,

But I thought of you.  

I thought about if you were happy, if you were okay,

Because I still cared about you.  

In October, I didn't know any more. 

Forgetting is something hard to do, 

I wanted everything to fade away, 

I wanted to leave you behind,

I wanted everything to stop,

Because I knew that November was coming.

In November, your birthday is on the 15th. 

You love your birthday.  

Last year, I wrote you a letter 

Wrote it with all my heart.

This year, I left a little message and I wanted to cry,

Because you never replied.  

In December, it was better. 

The feeling of missing you was getting better.  

It was disappearing...

Little by little,

Christmas spirit drove it into the deep confines of my mind,

Because that was all I could do.  

In January, we spoke.  

I didn't mean to, I really didn't mean to.

I said, "Happy New Year." 

"lol, you too," is all you said,

But that made me cry for the longest time,

Because I realized I still missed you.  

Now it's February again.  

My birthday wish for this year is to forget you, 

And for you to be happy without me, 

For me to move on from you,

Because that's the only thing I can do.  

In the future, maybe we'll meet again.

I will smile and say, "Hello."

"Hello," is all you reply with. 

"I'm Kei," I'll say, 

"It's nice to meet you."

Because it will be nice to meet you again.  

-Kei 150220

Tell me a joke please, I need to laugh right now before I start crying.  Or give me a hug.  Hugs are nice... 

I just want to forget, but it's so hard to.  

My birthday is on next Wednesday! Yay!!  Same day as the Tasty Twins, except there's time difference so not really.  Also same day as George Harrison from the Beatles.  And my cousin.  And my classmate.  And probably a lot of other people. xD  

I'll be updating SoG on Sunday.  And I have a WooYeol fic in the making right now and kind of writing a DongJong fic and a MyungGyu fic.  I also have a WooGyu and two MyungYeol stories from the Secret Santa that I will be posting as soon as it's finished.  Plus, a essay on Edgar Alan Poe that I'm not going to bore you with.  hahaha... yeah.  

Bye~  Have a nice day.  Remember to smile and to laugh a lot!