Chapter 2

    I hate them but I most especially hate her. Why? Because she have everything that I want. Fame, money, friends and most of all the guy that I love.   I loved her like a real older sister. Even my biological sister is jealous of our special bond but it all ended up when they 'kick' her out. I was really mad at them but after learning about the truth it all subsided. I thought we're doing good and getting back to normal but they happened.   The guy whom I adored, admired and loved ended up with her. I felt betrayed. She knew about my feelings and yet she still did it. She answered him with her sweet YES. I am crazy in loved with him. I love him and only him.   I wish that she would just vanished from the face of the earth.   Out of my life.   Out of our life.   Out of his life.   No! No! No! No!   I shouldn't think like that.   She's still my beloved UNNIE.   But she betrayed me!   My sister!   Please help me! Stop thinking about those things!   No! Just go! Be gone forever!       We treat each other as brothers. We never kept any secret between one another. It was a surprise when he informed us about his plans. I can't believe that our Hyung is already planning to settle down.   What about us?   We still haven't achieved our dreams.   Is she really worth it?   There are better girls than her.   I always asked him what's really good about her and he'll reply with a cheesy answer. 'I don't even know but one thing is for sure I can't see living in the future without her.'   "Hey Hyung want to hang out with us?", I asked  our Hyung.   "Sorry not today Ji. I have to go to their dorm since MiYoung is sick.", he said while arranging his stuffs on his bag.   "O-okay.", is all that I can say.   "Be careful Hyung. Say hi to noona.", our maknae shouted.   He just smile at us and went out of the practice room in a haste. I sighed inwardly and look at the door. It's been a month since he told us about it. Even HyunSuk Hyung agreed to this engagement. But I can't take it anymore. Our responsible Hyung is neglecting his duties as an artist and as our friend. He's too focused in preparing for the surprise and his MiYoung.    He never hangout with his group mates and label mates. It's as if his world only revolves about her.   It's much better when he's still not dating her.    What if she's not here?   Will our Hyung still be with us?   It's her fault.   She doesn't even deserve him.   Our Tabi Hyung is for Big Bang only.       "Still going out?", I asked her.   She blushed at my question like a high school girl and nod her head.   "Good for you. I hope for the best for the two of you.", I said with a smile on my face but deep inside I can feel my heart aching.   I can't believe that I let this girl go out of my life. She's the perfect wife to be and daughter-in-law to be. God fearing, kind hearted, beautiful, talented, smart and everything that a guy could wish for and I'm so stupid to cheat on her.    I'm silently wishing for them to break-up.   I want her back in my arms.   I need her back in my life.   She's the missing piece in my puzzled heart.   If only he's not here then she'll be mine once again.   What if that guy is gone?   No. I can't think of that.    But I want her.   If she can't be with me then she can't be with any other man.   She's only mine.   Mine.   Mine.       The way they happily entertain their fans really irritates me. I should be part of that happy group if they didn't 'kick' me out. They can't wait for me to leave the group by next year so they did what they think is right. I was so pissed off.    But that's all in the past now. I've already moved on and living the life that I wanted. No overworking. No fake persona. Just me and my business.   I became friends with them again. My twin sister MiYoung is my friend again. But something happened. It hurts to watch my younger sister crying every night due to heart ache. Seeing her in pain because of them.   But what can I do?   How could I break them apart?    They look really happy with each other.   She's also my friend. My dear friend.   They said family first before anything else.   But it's unfair for the two of them.   No. Blood is thicker than water.   I'll do anything for my sister's happiness.   Even if it would cause our friendship.       I hate seeing them together. The look of love in her eyes that I long to have is now looking at another guy.  We've been friends even before our pre-debut days. I know all her secrets. I'm a stupid coward for giving her up for the first time. But I won't allow it for the second time.    It was autumn of 2015 when she excitedly called and asked me to meet her in the usual cafe. I became pump up since its been months that she initiated a call. I hop up to my car and went to meet her.   My world crash down when I hear her story.   "Oppa! Tabi and I are dating!"   I felt my head spinning around.   "What?"   "I said Tabi and I are dating! You know the guy from Big Bang."   Dating? Big Bang?   "When?"   "We started out just a week ago."   I slump on my chair and look at her sparkling eyes.   "Why him?"   "Eh? Why not? He's a nice guy behind those intimidating looks. But you know what oppa his also a bingu like you."   Nice guy like Khun. And a Bingu like me.   "I don't know what to say."   "Yah be grateful. You're the first person that I told about this news. Even my members still doesn't know about it."   How can I be grateful knowing that I lose you again.   "Congrats"   Then she started telling me about their dates. How nice and kind that Tabi is. That he's almost perfect.   I hate hearing it.   I knew her first.   I won't allow anyone to be with her unless it's me.   She'll be my doll that's lock up in the glass.   Mine only.       We were an item first. Everyone love us. Fans like us. I met him when I came back to Korea to train in the same company as him. He confidently told me that I was his ideal woman. Great figure, beautiful face, kind hearted, talented and mature. He courted me for months but I have to reject him since his younger than me.   Then he debuted as part of the newest boy group. They instantly hit the jackpot and gain popularity. He on his own became one of the most famous faces in the industry. Girls are flocking to be with him. I regret the things that I have done to him.    As soon as I debuted I tried to reach the place where he was. We