The big day finally arrived and I was a nervous wreak, I remeber shaking in my seat in fear as all those negative thoughts invaded my mind, "You have no buissness being here, your just going to humilate yourself," I could see the images of the bullies in my head saying those awful things to me, each sentence brought my self-esteem down even more, I could see them mocking me, laughing at me. Getting up I ran into the bathroom. closing my eyes and taking deep breaths, I felt a tap on my shoulder and you would never guess how it was, ---- it was Jessica. 

" Are you okay" is what she said, at that time I did not answer " nervous" , I shook my head, " well don't be just think postive and all the nervous will go away." when she left I walked up to the mirror and once again was faced with the girl in the mirror. She looked sad, worried, less confident. Is that really me I thought. Than I remebered Jessica's words " Think positive" and that is what I did, I told myself " I can do it, I'm going to finally be me" After saying those positive words I opened my eyes and looked at the girl in the mirror, but the difference was this time she was smiling. 

Next it was my turn. Standing in front the judges was terrifiying knowing that these Five people are either going to make your dreams come true, or cruch them. Taking a deep breath and I introduced my self and started singing. The Song I chose was hopeful by bars of melondy as it is a song about bullying and sticking up to stop bullying. Whist signing the song i could not help but to imagine the judges being replaced by Krystal, Luna, Victoria, Amber and Sulli, everything that they said to me, everything they have done to me, all the emotions that I feeling, like the hurt, anger, pain, despiration and hope where put into the song. 

( listern to Bars Of Melody, lyrics)

Oh-oh-oh

Putting the phone down, I did what everyone does when their happy. " AAAAAAAAAAAAAH" I screamed whilst jumping up and down.

" What happened, wheres the robber, did they hurt you?, let me find them" My mum came in in with a rolling pin and started panicing as she inspect me for injuries. 

" No mum you can put your rolling pin away,  I just got a call from my SM..... and I got in" I said, this time it was my mum who fainted. 

Later that evening Logging into my facebook page, I noticed once again that it was covered with nasty message " She did not turn to school today, I think she killed herself." was one of the comments, yes I did, I killed the old Yuri you guys made me out to be and in her place the new real yuri was born.