[CONTENTID1] Afraid To Have You 

                                   Last Shot             [/CONTENTID1]

[CONTENTID2] .Living my life is a greatest thing I have.But that's if I'm all away from entertainment industry.

Its wasn't because of the environment I live in but with who I live with.

My mom used to be an actress yes I can accept the job she's up to but I can't accept the people around her.Those freaking in idiots.

My mom is beautiful I inherited her beauty tho.

Its not that I'm too full of myself but I cant I the fact.

Wanna know why I hate her job?

I gotta tell you just wait.

But the main point here is the fact that I like this person and I hate this feeling.

At first when I didn't knew her occupation I wasn't afraid to show her that I like her but the good thing I still haven't confessed when I discover something that made me distance myself from her and It hurts me that it comes to the point that I feel my body slowly getting dried up because of blood lose.

Jessica Jung, my greatest first love,my hot ,sweet,clingy,and caring crush slash love is a freaking actress not just a simple actress but an star.

How I didn't knew at the first place?

Because I am doing everything to stay away from entertainment industry.And I know it was kinda impossible but I did.

Why of all the occupation she could have she chose to be an actress.

Why didn't she became like me, I appreciate art on my way while working as an on-call accountant/external editor.

Now I know the reason why she barely have time to hang out  with me.

Why she needed to dressed like some spy or why we need to hide and sometimes hang out at night time and even spend being together like time is too precious to waste.

I know that time is the greatest thing we can enjoy 

But why to spend it like there is no more tomorrow so we need to rush thing.

How can I love her freely if she barely has time for me?

If she have this occupation that I really hate the most?

And most of all,

If she doesn't feel the same way.

So many questions, no answer.

I was waiting for mom to came back from the room she entered which is on front of me.

I can here what they we're talking about but I don't care about it.Its all about their business, their industry, talking about schedules,advertising,shows to attend and movies and dramas to film

But I stared for a while in the door after a not so long silence there.

I was curious to know why, so I take a peep on the ajar door without being noticed.

My mom was being harrased by her boss,she has nothing to do but to freeze there and I hate her for that.

I know that dad is dead already but why isn't she complaining?

Why is she letting her boss hold her *ss and moun*s

Is this the exchange for the work given to her?

Is this the only way for us to live?

I looked at my mother's pleading eyes,her tears are flowing already so I think for a way to help my mother 

I barge in and hold at the hem of my mother's hem of dress 

"Ahjussi,I'll get mom and we'll be out,take care of yourself,I know that you are working hard for your family but I hope you're not doing something bad just to achieve your dreams you know why?"

Yoona said like an old person

The boss beam a fake smile at her

"Why?"

"Because Karma is digital,and I know that your family didn't want something to happen on you.Just like how I didn't want something bad to happen at my umma.You know what?If I discover something that I will really hate,I will do everything  to punish the culprint"

I said with serious and deadly glare towards my mother's boss 

He has taken aback and I'm happy to know that he already know that she should not take a wrong move anymore so I beam her a smile

"Be a good GUY  OR A GENTLE MAN Ahjussi"

I said for the last time before leading my mom out of the office room and lead her to the nearest bending machine.

That time mom give something to drink and told me something that I will never ever forgot.

"Thank you sweetie.You are mom's superyoong"

The flashback during my childhood ended as I can feel a vibration from my pocket.

I fished my personal phone out and without even looking at the caller  I answered it.

(My working phone is separated)

"Hello this is Im Yoona to be rude but Im busy at the moment.Please call me again after an hour please.Thank you."

I was about to end the call I greeted and say with giving a chance for the caller to say something but I stopped when I heard that familiar addicting angelic voice and when my eyes met the name of the caller on my screen 

Jung Sooyeon

[Yoong are you avoiding me?]

"...."

"Later Jessica"

I said again 

[Yoong please don't end the call,I have something to tell you]

I stopped on painting using my other hand while using the other for my phone

"..."

[Yoong?]

"..."

[Are you still there?]

I can hear  the pleading tone on her voice

"Hmm?"

I said to let her know that I'm listening but not in mood to talk 

[Why are you avoiding me Yoong?]

"..."

[Yoong...please you're driving me nuts at this moment.]

".."

[Yoongie~.Talk back I want to hear your answer.I want to hear your reason and I want to hear your voice ]

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