DARK HORSE

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z e r o

The First Rule of Keeping a Promise:

Do not break it

It is now 4am, and the weather seems to be cooler than other nights. The sound of the clock ticking fills the room and a guitar is placed at the corner of the room. The poster of a rock band, ‘Metallica’ fell from its place multiple times a day, but because of the laziness of the room’s owner, he had not once went to the store to tape it back into place.

“Ah..”

Baekhyun thought that his voice sounded better than this; at least it was not this husky as if he was being suffocated as a certain someone gives him little kisses on his flat tummy. He lifts up his body so his favorite pair of jeans would slide off easily as the cold air suddenly hit him.

“Can’t we change positions?” Baekhyun asked because of the uncomfortable position they are in now.

 “Who cares right now” the latter answered while taking off his clothes, “We’ll just do it this way…”

The distance between their lips shortens before they share a really long kiss. The kiss was not passionate, it was full of lust and the taste of alcohol and cigarettes filled their kiss. The tint smell of Park Chanyeol’s sweat makes his temperature rise, or maybe it was because of that stupid game from two hours ago.

“What are you laughing at?” The irritated Chanyeol asked as he took off his jeans

“It smells like you just  fell into a pool of alcohol”

Usually, Chanyeol would just laugh it off or would call him silly, but as of now, his brows were furrowed as if he was thinking about something. However, Park Chanyeol was still Park Chanyeol no matter what.

Baekhyun’s body was pulled towards Chanyeol and one side was lifted up onto his broad shoulders, and before he knew it, he felt a tight presence between his legs. Although it was tight as hell, it was also pleasuring.

 “It’s not comfortable, can’t I lie on my stomach?” Baekhyun said as he covered his face with his arms before he was lifted on top of the latter’s leg.

“I want to see your face.” Park Chanyeol’s answer was short as he crossed the Baekhyun’s arm behind his back. Baekhyun felt his lover’s member deeper and deeper in that position as they moved along the rhythm.

 “It’s embarrassing..” Baekhyun complained, who would be used to having while looking at each other? Park Chanyeol that is..

“What is there to be embarrassed about right now?”

Thanks to the fact that no one knows about their relationship, Baekhyun doesn’t have to face the embarrassment of his band members teasing him. As moans escapes Chanyeol’s lips, Baekhyun felt glad that the moans were only for him to hear as they share another long and passionate kiss.

Chanyeol hair was a mess, others may think that he looks funny, but for Baekhyun, he was so damn hot that Baekhyun couldn’t resist kissing him over and over again.

“Ah.. Chan.. Chanyeol.”

Moans filled the air as each becomes deeper and faster as they both came together.

“I’ll go clean up-aish - the bed is dirty.”

“....”

Chanyeol kissed Baekhyun gently as he pulled Baekhyun into a warm embrace.

“Baekhyun”

“hmm?”

“When I’m with you, never once have I been sad or down”

“What are you even saying” Baekhyun chuckled.

Chanyeol is not the type to be cheesy, but right now he was saying those things as if it was the most serious things in this world.

“Listen to me.”

“....”

“I’m being serious, we formed a band with Suho hyung and Kyungsoo right?”

“....”

“And you know how much I need you in my life.”

Chanyeol eyes were not warm and full of love as they used to be, right now, it was full of sadness as if he has something kept inside.

 “Are you okay?”  Baekhyun raised Chanyeol’s chin and planted a soft kiss at the tip of his nose.

“Why are you suddenly dramatic?”

Baekhyun knew that the memories that they shared together were always happy, but Chanyeol’s expression right now was telling the opposite. Confessing something that was stressful after having was also not a good feeling, but Chanyeol just decided to say it with a heavy heart anyway.

“I...”

“....”

“....”

“Chanyeol?”

“....”

“....”

“Nothing..”

And just like that, the conversation ended. Chanyeol placed Baekhyun on the bed so he would be comfortable, then he went inside the bathroom with the same pair of jeans that was still on the floor from moments ago. While Chanyeol was in the bathroom, Baekhyun quickly change into brand new clothes and walked towards the bathroom.

Chanyeol didn’t even turn on the lights, he washed his faced with the tap water until his hair was also wet. ‘This is not normal’ Baekhyun thought. Seeing that the cheerful Chanyeol was unusually quite made him even more scared of the thought that what Chanyeol kept inside was a bigger problem than he originally thought.

Maybe Chanyeol was stressed because of what happened a few hours ago.

“Chanyeol” Hearing that, Chanyeol turned to faced him and from that moment, Baekhyun was sure something was wrong. “Are you still stressed because of that?”

“....”

Seeing that there was no answer, comforting words that he was planning to say was gone and his mind suddenly went blank. Chanyeol walked and sat down on the bed as his eyes followed along his lover who followed and sat on the old leather sofa.

 “Baekhyun…” Chanyeol called him again

“It is not a big deal’ everyone makes mistakes.” Baekhyun quickly answered, scared that Chanyeol would feel bad about the performance.

“Stop thinking about it-”

“Listen”

“....”

“I...”

“I have been thinking about that for a while now…”

Baekhyun had no idea what was the ‘That’ that Chanyeol was talking about. However, he was scared that it would be something he wouldn’t want to know.

“I’m so sorry that I have been keeping this from you guys.”

“....”

“....”

“Just tell me about it, I’m always here to listen to you.”

Chanyeol felt like the boulder on his shoulder was becoming heavier and heavier, he tried to put his words to make it appear as nice as possible, but not one of them seems to be comforting.

“Last month Neighbor contacted me….”

Baekhyun felt like he was hit by a hammer. He was never stressed about a company contacting Chanyeol because usually Chanyeol would just brush it off, it happened many times. But this time Chanyeol thought about it and even told him about it.

The Park Chanyeol in front of him right now, was not like the same Park Chanyeol.

He knew this time it was different, Neighbor Record is a big company and everyone knows about it, and Baekhyun didn’t want to hear about what his lover was planning to do.

“And you know that right now Arch is finding a new guitarist..”

“Hmm...”

“....”

Baekhyun didn’t know when his hands went to the key charm on his neck, maybe it was when the charm was about to fall off. In his mind everything was red and hot just like the sun rays in the afternoon. His body suddenly turned cold like ice and to him, Park Chanyeol seemed like someone, No, ‘something’ he never knew about.

“Of course I know.”

Baekhyun’s voice was shaking. He never bothered when he heard that the rock band, ‘Arch’ was missing a guitarist. He never thought about the audition for a new member of Neighbor Record, and he never once thought that his lover, his Park Chanyeol, would even bring up this topic.

“....”

“....”

Surrounding them was only silence, the blue charm that he gave as a birthday present last year seems to shine brighter with the black shirt that he was wearing. Chanyeol didn’t say a thing, even though he said it, things would only get worse.

“Baekhyun...”

Chanyeol hands brushed Baekhyun’s hair gently but it was pushed away as if his hands were acid to Baekhyun’s skin. Baekhyun’s vision was becoming blurry like when he was staring out of the window on a rainy day.

“What is it that you want?”

“....”

“Tell me.”

Baekhyun thought that he was being patient, being able to ask such question. However, the sight of Chanyeol was still making him mad. Even the ring tattoo that was on his left ring finger was disgusting to him due to the fact that he knew that the same tattoo was on the latter’s right ring finger.

Chanyeol didn’t know if he should embrace Baekhyun or should he just leave everything just like that. Asking for forgiveness would just put shame on himself.

“....”

“....”

“I quit…”

“Chanyeol”

“…..”

‘’Do you think that Glay would be able to become famous?’’

‘’If it comforts you then maybe it could become famous.”

‘’You know that Glay is my life, my dream, right?’’

‘’Of course I know Baek, to me, Glay is like you’’

‘‘…’’

‘’You’re my life-’’

“Get out”

“....”

“I don’t want to see your face”

Baekhyun never thought that this day would come, the day that he had to say those words to the man in front of him, the man who promised that they would be one, the man that said they would live the life and achieve their goals together. He trusted those words.

He was angry because Chanyeol only cares about himself.

“....”

“I said get out!”

Chanyeol was no more than a stranger to him right now.

“….”

“Just off.”

Baekhyun never thought that the feeling of betrayal would hurt this much. He never thought that the one year that they have been on stage together would not mean anything to the man in front of him. Of course, the opportunity to be famous is always alluring.

“....”

Park Chanyeol picked up the key charm that was now on the floor, the feeling of Baekhyun’s warmth still lingered around it, the memories that they shared together were still kept inside.

However, this was the path that Chanyeol decided to take.

And Baekhyun only gave that charm to him, so he would be able to unlock the charm on his neck too.

 “I’m sorry”

Chanyeol didn’t unlock his charm, instead he kept it inside his pocket, he then picked up his guitar, put it inside his bag, and carried it on his shoulders. He wanted time to slow down badly although he knew that it would never happen. Baekhyun still stood still in front of the sofa that the he and Chanyeol brought together using the money that they earned.

The sky is becoming darker and darker so Chanyeol returned the room’s key and keycard on the table inside the room. Half an hour ago, Baekhyun was still laughing and cheerful but Chanyeol chose to end his happiness with his own hands.

Chanyeol turned to look at his lover for the last time after he felt a force on his back, his favorite pair of jeans that he always wore on stage was now on the floor. Baekhyun is now on the sofa facing down, it was too painful for him to watch his lover who was the world to him crying.

He needs to say something.

“....”

However right now, silence was the best way to say farewell.

Baekhyun’s world has already crashed.

After he heard the sound of the door closing, Baekhyun sobs became louder and louder, he doesn’t need to be embarrassed about crying, it was only him right now…. the stupid guy who choose to stay in the same place and not move on..

While the other person chooses to leave…

Just like a selfish person who didn’t turn back anymore.

TBC