Word: Tears

Couple: one-sided!JunKwang (sorry, angst)

Length: 998 words

A/N: i'm not sure about how it came tbh :(

Kikwang wasn't the kind to cry, seriously. Between all of them in Beast, he wasn't at ease when it came to tears. He was awkward if he had to console someone sniffing with red eyes, even if it was Yoseob he had known since highschool. That's why it was always Dujun who hugged the maknae – because the maknae was the most sensitive and the one who cried the most, of happiness, exthaustion, anger or sadness. Dongwoon was their little crybaby and Kikwang didn't mind at all all the tears if he didn't have to manage with it.

He himself didn't cry that much. Okay, for their first win at a music show with Shock he was a mess, but it was so overwhelming and the others weren't helping him – even Dujun was in tears so how could he stay calm and cool! Yes, he could cry on big occasions like this one, but you couldn't compare him to a teenage girl or to the maknae.

He wasn't that accustomed to the burning sensation in his eyes, that need to sob, to ease a pain or his hurt with his own tears, like water you use to stop a fire. It wasn't usual for him to feel a weird sensation that gave him no envy to smile but just to complain in his sadness.

So when it took him, he was left without mark, without clue, and he tried so hard to understand his tears but then, when it took him few times a week – always hidding from the others, he finally found what was the reason of those tears he wasn't familiar with.

Yes, Kikwang was dumb, and it took him long enough to understand that this endless ache in his heart, this need to shed tears to forget the burning sensation of something you want terribly but never will have, this comfort to sob in your pillow when everybody else is in the living-room, was just because of one person and one feeling. One inaccessible person and one horrible and devastating feeling.

Kikwang, as the tears, wasn't familiar with love either. He was pretty a novice beside the image of y and cute man he gave – sure he had already kissed few girls, dated some of them, but to the point of loving them? Never. So this cruel feeling took him without warning and it hurt so much.

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