Color splash, heart clash
Description
“I didn’t choose to go against everything I know,” Lu Han spends his whole life running away from everything he needs, embracing everything he should want. That is until Oh Sehun comes barging into his world, splashing his grey walls with the brightest colors.
Written for round 3 of Selubration |
Foreword
This story wouldn't have made the deadline (or ever see daylight) if it was not for the amazing support and encouragement of my beloved jie. Jie, thank you so much for everything, from the unconditional support to the crazy messages I love to receive from you. We both know how much I struggled with this story. We both know what this story has been through. Jie, I really do love you. Chennie loves you a lot. And although all I can give back is a sincere thank you, a virtual hug and a promise that I will always only be a message away, do know I only wish the best for you. This story is for you. For us. Jie, promise me you'll be kinder to yourself. I will be kinder too, okay? It's a promise. |
Hello everyone!
I hope you have all enjoyed this fanwork fest organized by Selubration! If you don't understand what I'm talking about, I urge you to click on the link here and discover all the wonderful, amazing stories the talented writers have created.
Honestly, this is the kind of story I have wanted to write for a very, very long time. It took me years before I could finally put it on paper. The moment I saw the prompt - short and to the point - I knew I had to choose that one. Everything in this story, from the title to the quotes to the dialogues, are important to me. There is actually a Word-document on my computer, created in 2013, titled Color Splash, Heart Clash. It had to be this title. I couldn't go for anything else. And homophobia is something that I wanted to write about for a very long time already. I just felt the need to have written this kind of story.
I deliberately chose high school. Why? Because high school was a time when I thought I knew what I wanted. High school was a time in my life when all I did was study like it was my only purpose in life. I discovered that studying isn't everything there is to life. I discovered that the things people say aren't always true. I discovered that I didn't want a lot of things others said I should want. I didn't need those things. High school is an intense time, really. High school is really something. And I want you to know that it's okay to be scared, it's alright to not know what you want. Who really knows? Most importantly, I want to say that nothing is harder than being honest to yourself. However, let's all try to be more honest with ourselves.
I believe that there's only one thing worse than fear: it's regret. Regret you didn't fight for your passion, your dream. It's not about the result. It might not turn out the way we want it to, but that's alright. What matters is that we tried. What matters is that we did not run away. What matters is that when we are eighty, sitting on a chair while looking out of the window, we don't watch the world with sadness. We don't regret.
I will end it here, but I do hope that we can all try to make this world a better place. It starts with yourself.
Sincerely,
Tinywings
P.S. There will be slight differences with the version posted at Selubration. The reason is because I always go back to my work after some time to reread everything and remove all typos and grammar mistakes. Of course, the story itself stays exactly the same.
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