Teasing Amber has been a habit I can't get rid of. Seeing her surprised face as I pulled her into a deep kiss gave me that tinge of happiness I'll probably never be able to get from basketball or an english proficiency exam. At first, I thought my feelings for her was just some sort of a petty crush I'll probably get over sooner or later. But it wasn't. I've been wishing for years it was. Seeing her everyday was both torment and pleasure. An ecstatic ride of both heaven and hell within a daydream's reach.

Amber and I are bestfriends since nobody knows when. Well, to put it fairly, she's bestfriends with everybody and I'm just one of those guys she cursed to stay forever in the friendzone lane. We hangout a lot. Well, probably, she hangs out with everybody a lot too. See? I am no special person to her. Just a random guy she runs around with when she's bored or when she needs someone to treat her packs of cheetos.

I had no intentions of breaking our friendship, I don't want to scare her off and most of all, the fear of rejection was something I don't want to face. Besides, she just sees me as her "bro" after all, not someone who she can "possibly" spend the rest of her life with. I was just Kris, the basketball jerk who specializes in dumping girls because of his divine good looks and she was Amber, the tomboy with sparkly hazel eyes and angelic llama face, the school's math goddess, the Chemistry Club's president, the sophomores' rubiks cube heroine, and everyone's bestfriend. I opted to suffer the curse and be on the friendship lane for internity because somehow, knowing who she is and what everyone thinks of her, I felt like I didn't deserve her at all.

"How about you date your phone instead Kris-hyung? You're seriously becoming so clingy and Amber-noona's not even your girlfriend!" I remember Sehun making fun of me one time when Amber decided to stay late at a friend's house to do her music class projec