Flashback 2 days ago

Yul, his father on the phone

Chanho told his father about the fight  

Father: Yul , you cant do this anymore

Father: son ... there always to be a limit son ...  i cant do baseball if i can i do it !

Yul: dad whatever i want granpa always want differently ! 

Father: i know you not ready for this but your granpa expect alot from you and i really hope you can made him proud 

Father: these times are hard but they will pass , you can do this, please ! 

Yul: dad ..i cant do this 

father: Yul please , if i can made him proud im not gonna pushing you 

Yul: no you cant do this to me ! you the one who mess things up with him ! NO !

father: you've already do this all this time you good at this, all your life why this thing become a problem now !

Yul: because i dont want it even from the start !

father: KWON YURI !

Yul: youre not a good child too !

Father: Then why you so mad ? 

Yul: because if you can screw up why can i do it just once !

Father: yul , i know i screw up . i want fix this and i dont know how !

father: what can i do ? granpa push me ? im not pushing you , im hoping you could do it. yul as we know what the thing he done for our family. He take me from nothing to this . we must be grateful so please SON !

Father: im begging you !

Yul (sad tone ): ............. i do it okay for us........

Father: thanks yul , im really sorry

Yul teary: ....so my life for me now .......... im just going losing whats inside until im just empty

yul hangs up

 

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On dorm boy yul tell everything to the boys even his conversation with his dad and swimming

Yoong: Have you check? is you really his child ?

Sooyoung: Wow ! thats bold 

Hyoyeon: Have you told Jessica about this ?

Yul: No , i just start say i need a time alone she already screming and yelling saying things like break up now

Taeyeon: Of course! who doesnt freak out ?

Yul: i just asked her if she could understand me

Yoong: you just making youre self an excuses that youre busy you not explaining to her !

Yoong: why you treating her like this ? you should tell her everything so she can understand

Hyoyeon: So you guys break up?

Yul: at the end the bomb has exploded , she nastily pushed and swore at me while im yelled at her

Sooyoung: you both were crazy 

yul: and we cant go back and now its the time to end it , so somebody got to say goodbye because it was too hard to see her hurting like a fool i just cant ..... so i said it 

Taeyeon: Yul if you want to end this , at least try to be completely bad . you cant do this to her

Yoong: will you just see each other ?

Yul: i .. i dont know (going to his room)

 

Yul inside is room

Yul crying Sorry sica baby 

we are getting farther apart now , not holding onto each other .... just looking at the end my heart arent reaching you ..... im so sorry

i... cant touch it , i cant see it ... i cant feel it 

Sorry baby for wasting you time talking about our feelings when you always tried your best and i was always the worst 

I know you held it in more , you cried more , you were more lonely

sorry im so sorry (keep crying) i couldnt hold onto you in the end

 

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Jessica and Tiffany at girl dorm

Jessica sobbing while Tiffany try to calm her 

Jessica: you know me right tiff ? even im curse thats not what i mean

Jessica: he keep , he he he .... keep saying those cruel words , scarring me as if he'll never see me again

Jessica: WHY dont he understand the meaning of my tears 

Jessica: im not saying we should end it ......(sob)....(sob)

Tiffany hugging Jessica

Jessica: thats not what i mean tiff ! thats not !

Jessica: im not saying we should end it ! thats not what i mean !

Jessica: THAT'S NOT !!! (breaking to tears river)

Jessica: dont ... leave me ...

Tiffany just cry with her hugging her so tightly 

Jessica thought " Please come back to the yul of the past , dont leave me yul , dont leave me seobang. It's okay you can curse at me back just please dont leave "

 

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Next day after the great break up 

(from yul perspective)

baseball team practice and jessica and Tiffany watching from bench

(there's 4 perspective from this time yul, taeyeon, tiffany and jessica)

Jessica is back so cold to ice princess

while yuri try to steal a glance but jessica cold eyes is cut in deeply his heart

yul feel a strange thing. He tought " This must be sickness. I cant even control my body not even my eyes like all energy i have leaves"

he cant do anything , like a sick mad man who keep thinking of jessica all day his thoughts filled with Jessica

Jessica just keep showing expressionless face

Yul cannot find meaning behind her face is she doing fine ? is she okay ? is she eating?

his heart is cut so deeply, his breath stop, just like he might die 

Yul thought " dam* ! i might go crazy . what will happend to me i really doesnt know"

if i cannot have you i might die i thought i be able to live if i let you go no i wont 

Yoong: Taeng , that tiffany (pointign at tiffany) and .. there jessica too. I hope she's okay

Tiffany: taeyeon fighting !!

taeyeon: oh

Sooyoung: she always looking for you these day

Taeyeon: i know

Yoong: so you guys ?

taeyeon: so what ?

Hyo: She seems fine .. jessica. good for her

Yuri feel like there's a spear stabing his heart a thorn when he hear her name 

shock on his chest as if he swallowed a thorn of a rose

pierced deeply his heart not his body that's bruised blue buy his heart 

hope that she cant hear his heartbeat that beats so loudly only for her

Yul: Guys , focus ! 

All: Yeah captain !

Yul: COME ON ! RUN ! (keep yelling)

 

at same time (Jessica perspective to be continue at next chap)

Jessica cold expressionless face while she stelaing glance at yuri

hoping that yul look at her eyes. Yul seems so piss during the training always yelling

Jessica thought " Please smile even once so i know that you fine so i can endure this by just look at your face"

 

Tiffany perspective from bench cheering for Taeyeon

She always hoping that if if if if i can grow a little closer to you.She look at him from afar and whisper to herself

tiffany thought

i would throw everything away my pride my family my everything and i would run to you now.

But even i strecth out my hand, stretch out with all my strength still i cant reach you.

I feels like were closer so i call for you in excitement but there's no answer. i dont think i'll ever reach you.

You start act different everyday  you changing image to shines brightly and warmly so i start being curious

but am i too selfish. we were together everynight but i cant approach you. Please grab my hand.

Even if you make fun of me saying that love is stupid things. You cant change these feelings 

If i scream at you if i lash out my anger at you i know its useless too becaue maybe to you im just one person out of many even when i pass you by 

i know im not special to you

end of tiffany

 

 

and jessica and taeeon at next chap

 

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Insipired from him** and song stup** L*** , se**** and sy**tom* , i* and c** yo* h*ar **

 

 

Enjoy sorry ive been busy

and im still busy so im just gonna post the hidden chapter while finish my job

when im done im gonna write again hope its not too long