Pov 1 :

I made myself comfortable on the couch as i stared at the television screen .

Here he was , having an interview .

I couldn't help but feel jealous as the interviewer mentioned the rumors about him getting included in

the cast of the movie " The story of us "

starring him and the forever top star Ahn Daniel .

He chuckled saying he was still considering it , that made the mc shift the conversation saying

" Ooooh ~ but the fans' reactions are promising " 

He chuckled again nodding .

" So , we shall expect a marvelous comeback of the star Ahn Daniel and you , the rising star ? "

He nodded  , not wanting to spoil anything .

I was surprised when the mc asked about " Us " .

" So , i have heard people shipping you with the star Lee Chanhee , they say you guys are almost like Seo in Guk and Lee Jong suk !  "

I suddenly curled my knees up and anticipated his answer .

" Ahah .. yea .. we are real close .  " 

♦

Flashback : pov 2 :

I still remember the first time i saw you in Kindergarten. 

When the teacher introduced you. 

You were that cute talkative kid. 

You stood out. 

You were confident and free. 

Unlike me. 

 I admired you and looked up to you. 

We grew and my feelings grew along. 

I was happy,  somewhere between those stolen glances ,  i was happy i got to see you ever day..

Every school day. 

Every year . 

And that's when i figured out my feelings weren't trivial. 

They were more than just a childhood crush. 

More than a simple admiration. 

That,  i kept to myself. 

Loving you from far..  contented me. 

Until that day. 

That day you were playing with your friends . 

the ball hit me whilst descending the steps and i fell down scratching my legs pretty bad. 

You ran to me apologizing and i wished i could just bury myself alive. 

I had taken every possible procedure that you don't actually meet me. 

And now here I'm. 

A retarded nerd who fell on the steps getting hit with a ball. 

I winced in pain  as my bangs hid my eyes,  as if the glasses weren't enough. 

You commanded me not to move until you got the first aid kit. 

I really thought of running but my legs weren't cooperating. 

Where did your friends go any ways?  

It wasn't long before you came back again and attended for my injuries. 

" Ah fu-" i covered my mouth turning tomato red. 

* Now i'm making it even Worse !

However, you chuckled at me " its ok,  cursing increases pain tolerance " 

Before you stared at me as i flipped my bangs. 

" Wait ..  Byunghun ? from kindergarten ?  " 

I couldn't contain my shock at that. 

You knew me ! 

Ever since that day,  you got more familiar around me.

And i found myself falling deep again.

We grew to be the best of friends. 

All of your qualities got passed to me as if a disease..  but in a good way. 

I found myself getting more social,  confident and basically.. you. 

I found myself becoming you. 

That's when i knew what it meant " to learn to love oneself " .

End of flashback. 

Byunghun pov:  

You were making us food as I sat by your  kitchen bar. 

" so ,  I heard you had many proposals like that but you rejected them .. why?  " 

I  just had an interview and i couldn't help but wonder why you never accepted those roles. 

" simply because I'm not interested "

I shoved my index accusing you " Omg!  You are actually scared ! "

" No, I'm not scared because I'm not like that " 

I  frowned at your words " Why are you so apprehensive about it? "

" Why are you so open-minded about it? "

* Are we seriously leading this kind of conversation ? 

'Answer question with a question 'style ? *

" I'm not scared.. "

You raised your eyebrows at me as you finally faced me ,  leaving the stove , 

An accusing smirk plastering your face.

Ugh !  What did i just say ?  *

" Because I know my roles would never affect me .  " 

I quickly masked up my answer avoiding your eyes .

" Sure about that?   "

You asked and I gave up on pleasing you. 

Location :

"  Take 5 guys ! The next scene is gonna be the last for today .  " 

I dropped to the chair next to me , exhaustion clearly showing itself  .

Closing my eyes  , I sighed taking in a deep breath .

" Hey ,  byunghun  . "

I opened one eye at Daniel , he was my sunbae in the acting career  yet younger than me by a year . 

Which explains why i was  so casual with him .

We complained about our schedules .

Ever since we started filming our movie , I barely got any sleep .

He dropped next to me considering the chair was actually big .

Sighing ,  he took a look at our scripts and i smiled recalling the first time the director talked to us about it .

" Hey daniel , remember that scene ? " I nodded at a certain page .

You furrowed your head at me obviously wanting more information  , and so i proceeded reading the script .

The movie was called " The story of us " 

My name was Lee Jordon / aka Ljoe .

Daniel's was  kim Nielardo / aka Niel .

A scene worth recalling was that one during our high school.

Everyone was talking about their dreams and what they wanted to be .

When i asked him  , He  said he  wanted to be a reporter .

" I have always wanted to be the light , Ljoe ! " I want to enlighten people ,  to pass on the truth , the true image."

" To make people aware of what's going on .  In my opinion it's a really honorable and self-satisfying job ! "

I was never into that field , however seeing you get engrossed mentioning it , how your eyes beamed ..

It made me admire you all the more .

" But ,  it can be dangerous ! " I  frowned at that .

You smiled ,  knowing that too " I know . And if that's what it takes I'm willing to give it my all or die trying . " 

I hit your shoulder at that , i didn't like mentioning death .

" Haha , sorry buddy . I promise i won't .  " 

Days passed as we graduated .

He pursued his dreams to be a reporter whilst i chose to study business .

Unfortunately , Our lives clashed and we barely saw each other .

Years passed and I got a job in the Hr department in a company .

Life sure is tiny .

Turned out one of my co-workers was actually a relative of Niel - changjo .

Our friendship got revived and we agreed to meet weekly to reminisce .

♦

I was drop dead tired after my filming activities , i headed straight home  .

Lucky tomorrow was free .

And that's not even the best part .

Chanhee was actually free too !

That doesn't usually happen !!

Usually when i got a day off , he was busy and vice versa .

Next day :

I reluctantly woke up feeling sleepy yet i had to get up .

Chanhee and i had plans .

We were going to have some fun today .

We needed it .

I needed it .

And trust me when i say , my need is definitely different than his .

I changed and abandoned my apartment knowing Chanhee would be waiting in the car now .

Speaking of which .. The day we got our driving license hah .. that was really one hell of a day .

Flashback : 

" Yah chanee !! slow down . You are going too fast !!! "

I had no idea what to do , i was lost between covering my eyes , holding my chest and throwing myself out of the car .

You smirked at me suggestively " Oh  , am i ? "

It took me a moment to realize the double meaning and i got even more mad , since i was now mad plus embarrassed .

you had no idea how much your friendly teasing made it hard on me .

End of flashback 

I smiled as i descended the stairs , I lived in the third floor thus needn't use the lift .

That day  we went to the library , yes library .

We both clicked on reading . 

Don't worry ! it wasn't the only place we went to .

We ate dinner and then grabbed some ice-cream walking around the park as we did so .

All of a sudden you looked at me after your treat .

" Byunghun ah , remember that day we skipped classes ? " 

I almost gulped my whole ice cream laughing recalling that , that made you laugh along .

You paused before saying " Don't you think it's amazing we are still together up till now ? "

I stared at you , a smile slowly making its way to my lips .

I chuckled and you asked me " What ?" chuckling along too .

" Nothing .. You just made it sound like we are a .. couple . "

My tone faded at the last word and i hesitantly checked your reaction and that's when i knew you heard it .

You smiled at me a smile i couldn't read .

A smile of someone in love  i  could swear !

I could never forget that .

Flashback :

" Hey chanhee ! I'm wondering what is she gonna be like ? "

" Who ? "

" The girl who would steal your heart "

" Haha  . "

" Really ! I wanna meet her ! " 

" Sorry byungbunny ~  I don't think you guys could actually meet .. unless .   " 

" Eh ? "

" oops . the teacher came ! " 

Another flashback hit me that day .

Spending a day with you was enough to make me recall my whole life of basically crushing on you  .

Later on that day , we went back to my house to get comfortable .

We dropped on the couch lazily leaning on each other .

" Ah , i heard tomorrow the weather is gonna be pretty bad . make sure you take your umbrella ! "

I chuckled at you , you were always like a mother to me Chanhee .

Flashback :

"Ah ! " I cursed as i ran towards the school gate .

It was raining cats and dogs and the best part  i didn't take my mother's advice of taking my umbrella thus ending up in this awesome situation .

However i couldn't just stay at school , so i made a run for it before i saw something blue blocking my vision and dragging me back forcefully .

" Please don't tell me you were thinking of going home like that ! " 

I shivered for one it was really really cold , second   I knew that voice .. There was no way i would mistake him for anyone else .

Here he was , Lee Chanhee , the love of my life offering me to walk side by side under the same umbrella .

I know what you are thinking now , like a bloody drama ! 

Location :

I was working when my mobile rang , i picked up " Niel ~~ "

".. B.. Byunghun ! " 

Wait ? what's that noise ? Why is his breathing rigid ? 

" Niel ? Where are you ?  "

I grew scared as i heard explosions on the line .

" Byunghun .. I love you   . " 

That was all I had  heard before Niel screamed and the call got terminated .

* What is this ? * 

* Niel wasn't supposed to die !! * 

He really wasn't !! Not in the script !! 

My body moved on its own as Changjo rushed in my office , looking a mess just as me .

After that , the news confirmed a number of citizens and reporters  lost their lives in a fire .

An act of terrorism or a mere accident , that we never knew .

One thing we did though.. Grieve ! 

They weren't even able to get Niel's body from under the building .

I held his picture squeezing it close to my lips , my tears won in the end .

" I really admire you  , Niel ! You pursued your dreams and they soon enough pursed you * sobs * .

Unlike me , I ignored my passion  for drawing . I ignored my dreams .

I had never pursued any of my dreams  which explains why i never pursued you even though you have always been part of my dreams ."

" You promised !  You idiot !! "

" You promised you would never leave me ! "

" And that's why I postponed my confession ,  from a day to a week to years ."

" If only i knew you harbored the same feelings , we would have been together now ."

♦

" WHooooo ! Guys ! let's have a party to celebrate the conclusion of our hard work .  "

I wiped my tears as I got pulled out of my " Role "  . 

Daniel ran to me hugging me , but  i pushed him aside still mad at the fact nobody had told me about that twist .

I never knew Daniel , No .. niel was going to die .

" Oh come on Byunghun ,  I didn't know either ! " 

I sulked nonetheless. 

" Why does it even affect you ,  Lee Byunghun ? ha ? " 

I stared at Daniel  feeling exposed .

That time , I knew he wasn't talking to me as Ljoe , he was talking to Lee Byunghun .

When he said "I love you . " and the whole drama about me regretting not confessing and probably him too .

It Was meant to be a wake up call for me .

For Lee Byunghun .

I needed to confront Lee Chanhee .

That's what Daniel  had meant .

That's what I had to read between the lines .

 " Yah  , Byunghun ! " 

I snapped out of my haze as you called me .

" Seriously ? ! What are you spacing out in ? "

* I was recalling my life thoroughly * 

Instead of answering you , I glanced at the clock before I heaved a sigh of relief .

" Byunghun ? Why do you keep doing that ? You have plans ? " 

I chuckled at you beckoning for you to come closer as i wrapped my arms around your neck .

" You really don't know,  Channie  ?  "

" No  ." You denied,  feeling comfortable with our intimacy. 

" Chanhee , I lee Byunghun  , feel the need to check the clock whenever I'm with you so as to make sure I'm not dreaming . "

* Clocks are  never there in Dreams  . *

You stared at me for a long time that i thought i had said something wrong

but then you hugged too tight we almost lost balance and fell off bed .

" Since when has my babe became so cheesy ? "

I grinned at that  . * Since i fell in love with you *

You parted our hug and pouted making me frown in confusion .

" You are making it sound like you love me more than i love you .  "

" Isn't that the truth ? " I teased before you shook your head frantically dragging me to the mirror .

" Byunghun , remember when i told you that you couldn't meet my lover ? "

* Yea , in fact i just recalled our whole life a while ago .  * 

" There's actually a way for you to meet  . " 

My brain froze at that .. Was i not that one ?

You back hugged me  ,  forcing me to look at the mirror .

And that's when I smiled tilting my head to capture the lips of the cheesiest man on earth .