Give Me Some Space
Broken VisionsI look behind me and see my fellow group member, Sunny staring at me. "Sunny? What are you doing still awake? We have a fan meet tomorrow!"
"I was up waiting for you! I'm not the only member going to the fan meet. You are too. We all need our rest, but I was worried about you being out so late when we have a busy schedule coming up." Sunny explained in an almost harsh tone.
I respond with defense, "You sound like such a mother right now Sunny. You're not even the leader of the group. Shouldn't you respect me a little bit more?"
Sunny sits down. "I do respect you, unnie. It's just that we have a busy schedule and I hate seeing you so exhausted all the time."
I let out a sigh and sit next to Sunny. "I'm sorry. You're right. I should be more aware about my health and make sure I'm well rested for future events. I guess I have just been a little lonely lately. I figured Baekhyun and I could spend some time together, but now I see that's almost impossible nowadays."
Sunny hugs me and pats the back of my head. "It's alright Taeyeon. Sometimes we need to see other people besides our group members. I understand why you would want to see Baekhyun because he's your boyfriend," I blush a little. "but don't forget to take care of yourself in the meantime."
Sunny let's me go and I stand up and walk to the kitchen. I make myself a glass of water and watch Sunny enter her bedroom and close the door behind her. I appreciate her worries for me, but sometimes I just need a break. I know I have a schedule tomorrow, but I still wanted to see Baekhyun.
That's not the only thing I'm stressed about. I'm still trying to get over Jessica's departure from the Girls' Generation. I did what I thought was best for the group, but in the end, I upset a lot of Sones. I lost a great friend and I don't know if I will ever get that friendship back. Can't anyone see that I'm in a tight spot? All I need is some space.
I finish my glass of water and place it in the dishwasher. The dryer holds my clean pair of warm pajamas that I washed earlier today. I retrieve my pajamas and retreat to my room. Tiffany is my current roomate and I honestly can't complain. She's one of the closest members to me in Girls' Generation. Through thick and thin, she's always there.
I quickly change into my pajamas and throw my dirty clothes into the hamper. Tiffany has fallen asleep without a blanket on so I give her one of mine. She loves my pink blanket the most. I lay the blanket on top of her and cover her feet. I then lay in bed under my white and fluffy blanket.
Staring at the ceiling, I think about the fan meet tomorrow and rehearse what im going to say to myself. I'm excited as always, but I still feel empty. Maybe because Jessica won't be there? I don't know. I just hope that I can get through the day with a natural happy smile on my face tomorrow.
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