There were times that she looked so happy when it came to our planning to get married. But there were also times that she looked doubt. She is type of woman who put me first on almost everything, and i am so thankful. But i don’t want her to agree this marriage just because i want to.

Anyway, i got invited to attend someone’s wedding a week ago. I brought yoona to accompany me. As the priest told something to the bride and groom, i proposed to yoona once again. With her questioned look she said “in 2021?” Was she joking? But how if she was not joking???

She was not joking. That’s my thought. I didn’t bring up any single marriage topic on our conversation until she asked me whether she should tell our plan to get married to her friends or not at few days ago. I told her bluntly that i didn’t think about it anymore. And she didn’t look mad at all. It actually was disappointing me, but somehow i felt relieved. I didn’t know why, but one thing i know is she is not ready yet for marriage.

- john